So I recently found this site after recently accepting I foind the whole thing appealed to me after years of denying it.
So I had been wondering how others came to fond themselves attracted to this life.
For me i guess my first realisation was at 14 when I saw my grans neighbour outside sunbathing.
At the time I had been living with my gran ( dad's side) since I was 8 after my parents divorced.
Any way my gran was a larger lady, loving but could be strict, she certsinly lived her food and cigarettes in that order and had this need to make sure I was well fed to.
The neighbour I mentioned was one of her closest friends even though was in her 40s and my gran was in her 60s
This woman was a lot larger than my gran.
I was 14 as I mentioned earlier when I saw the neighbour out in her back garden with my gran sunbathing and drinking. I'm not even sure why but I couldn't stop looking at her and after that i started feeling awkward around her when ever I was around her.
I am guilty of burying these feelings for years with it I suppose being a guilty pleasure until recently.
2 months
