Fat experiences

As I have put on about 30 pounds this year it wasn't until the last 5 or so pounds that I suddenly began to feel so many new sensations. Its not something that comes and goes after a big meal or wearing something tight and fitting. I now feel my belly resting on my belt, the new belly roll that is forming and how my moobs have a permanant hanging feeling. How my new gains roll and hang depending on my movements or body position. Having been under weight most of my life, just having something to pinch or grab was new, but now being able to "feel my body" almost like a constant presence is new. All of the new sensations are surprising and amazing at the same time. I feel as if my body sensitivity has sored. Even sex with my wife has gotten better despite my concerns that it would be a turn off for her.

Do these sensations ever fade? There isn't a moment of the day where I am not conciously aware of these new bodily sensations.

At 5'4" and 185 pounds I can't imagine what it will feel like with another 30 or 40 pounds. I am just starting to get a belly and love touching it and staring at it in the mirror. I can't even imagine what it will feel like to have a big round gut or hanging belly. I haven't grown out of any clothes yet either, but I can finally see my moobs and belly slightly protrude even when empty. I still have my reservations as I have always loved sports and have always considered myself an athlete. I don't know how my friends or family will react to more gains, but It is something that I have always wanted for a long time.

Any tips for handling new gains? I would love some motivation and more places that I could find ideas or insperation from.

Your brain kinda just ... gets used to it after a while. I have big boobs. They jiggle when I do anything. I used to notice it all the time, but now I only notice it if I am doing any kind of vigorous movement.

If it's that much of an issue, compression garments like under armor cuts down on that.

It's definitely an interesting experience gaining weight when you're starting off skinny. I remember when I first started gaining weight, I started with muscle mass and once I got to around 180-190 of lean muscle I noticed weird changes like my lats being big enough that they slightly pushed my arms up, so my arms don't naturally rest completely flat at my side and as I'd outgrow shirts my shoulders would cause the end of short sleeve shirts to flare up at the end to rest on my deltoids.
It was also around that point when I started intentionally gaining fat too, and while I've had some new sensations, mostly having to reach around my small, but sometimes annoying belly it hasn't been as strong as the sensations from putting on more muscle.

"Feeling my body" is the sensation I've been noticing as I regain the weight I lost in 2014-2015. I don't enjoy it, but it seems like my body decided it was going to so it's own thing whether I liked it or not.