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So, personally I'm a feeder, and a firm feeder. Sometimes, the idea of mutual gaining excites me, but as someone living with a critical illness who needs an organ transplant, gaining significant weight is kind of out of the picture for me. My body doesn't tolerate caloric food very well, and I wouldn't want to put my already fragile health at further risk lol

I guess I'm just curious if anyone has a similar experience? Even if not illness, if there are any experiences or events you have or are living through that heavily affect how you perceive the fetish/kink?

I get what you’re saying, I’ve been underweight most of my life so being heavier has been this sort of unobtainable, enviable thing for me. It’s only in the last couple years it I’ve come to terms that it ran as deep as an outright fetish. On top of that though the goal of gaining weight is to exert control over my body, like getting fat would be me showing dominance over myself. The experience of being unwillingly thin has pushed me to pursue this kink even harder.

I've been vegetarian basically my entire life, and I was a pretty picky eater at that so I was really skinny too. For me I wasn't really vegetarian for any moral reason, like yes the meat industry is corrupt but so is every other industry so it's not like abstaining from meat matters. Instead I just had a texture issue where literally the act of swallowing any meat product made me want to vomit. I have no idea why, but this started when I was like 7 and it still lingers to this day. I discovered in middle school that for some reason seafood doesn't trigger this reflex for me so I'd eat that occasionally. And more recently I've eaten some chicken here and there and depending on how it's cooked it doesn't trigger my gag reflex. Red meats are still entirely off the table for me, I just can't swallow them.
This has definitely impacted my ability to gain as meat is naturally high calorie. But it's just an obstacle, not a roadblock

Thank you so much for normalizing this whole experience for me. I’ve been fat all my life. And I spent most of that time being told I needed to be smaller. I tried everything short of wls to be a ‘good girl’. It became its own fetish (even while I was padding to get off). Once I found you all and realized I wasn’t this isolated freak on an island of one I was ready to get to the sizes my fat little brain has always dreamed of only to be stymied in that direction by medical issues. The phrase ‘showing dominance over myself’ really clicked. I feel like my body is not in my control. And that’s become its own fetish/obsession. Thank you for helping me unlock this info about myself.

Yes! I once was an extreme feeder! But roughly 3 years back i changed to being a feedee! I started pleasuring myself with feedee fantasies and now i cant help it at all!

Talking with a woman who also pushed me into engaging with my feedee side, also helped!