Fat experiences

I'm 22 and I've never been overweight, yet I've always felt a "fat identity" inside me. As if my destiny was to be obese, and I was repressing it.
I've always felt a certain connection to fat people, like I should be part of them. And I've always been a person who loves food, but a lot. I would eat in large quantities, but I've always had this repression against doing so.
Now I've decided to gain weight and embrace my fat identity. To accept it and embrace it.
I don't know if I've explained clearly what you meant, but I'd like to know your opinion.

Well if it makes you happy, go ahead, have fun.

If it turns out it doesn't make you happy and you aren't having fun, be prepared to put the effort in to correct it.

In either case, good luck, have fun, wear a rubber.