Hello friends, I've been struggling with a big dilemma for a long time. First of all, I'm 22 years old, and I've been in a relationship for almost a year, a relationship that has helped me a lot to overcome my insecurities and be more myself. At first it was incredible, but now the intensity has dropped too much. At one point, I felt confident enough to tell her that I wanted to gain weight, and on other occasions, I asked her what would happen hypothetically if I changed my body. In all these situations, she made it very clear that she would not like it and that she would leave me if something like that happened (it's a bit superficial). Right now, I've started college and I have enough time and money to make it happen, but I'm not doing it for her. At first, I thought it was worth it, but sometimes our relationship fluctuates and I wonder if it was really the best option or if I'm just wasting time doing something I've always wanted to do. Don't get me wrong, I love my relationship, but sometimes I'm afraid that it won't go any further and I think about the time I've wasted. I'm thin and tall, and I feel like I should start right now, since I've always dreamed of gaining weight while I'm in college.
I would like some advice or to hear if anyone else has had a similar dilemma, as well as some experiences of gaining weight in college.
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