I would like to share an observation with you. I’ve been involved in feederism for almost 10 years, although one might say that after 10 years I should be close to 300 kg. There were certain life situations that slowed down my weight gain. For a long time I stayed around 105 kg, and overeating never really came easy to me. Food wasn’t my priority, but I was still comfortably chubby. That was also reflected in my diet, as there were times when I hardly ate at all.
Over the last year, thanks to support, I gained 20 kg for the first time, and food—without me even realizing it—became the priority of my day. I also started consuming large amounts of sugar, which I’ve developed an addiction to. I enjoy pushing myself into a sugar coma. I eat more and more food but move less. Food gives me a feeling of a certain kind of euphoria. What I’ve realized is that I need that feeling.
I woke up one night feeling awful, so I headed to the fridge, where I stuffed myself with such a calorie bomb that I just rolled back into bed. When I overeat a lot, it excites me, and that’s why I want it all the time. I’m addicted to food; I love the feeling when I can stuff myself and barely move.
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