Lifestyle tips

Primus3452:
I keep having fantasies of getting fat just to lose it all, like some kind of extreme "body transformation." I don't have a kink or some kind of sexual attraction to the feeder lifestyle, but I still keep wanting to get fat on purpose just to experience it. At the same time, I also want to be lean and slim- it's like my two desires are competing with each other. Does anyone have tips for navigating this kind of situation?

There is such thing as a transformation kink. There's a website with stories: The Changing Mirror

IAmNotACat:
I mean, I think this describes a lot of us. I don't even like food all that much. I literally have just one reason to get fat and a million reasons not to, but here I am.

There is such thing as a transformation kink. There's a website with stories: The Changing Mirror

Primus3452:
Now that I hear about it, it's quite validating and makes me feel less "afraid" to act out my temptation, in a way. The issue is that when I actually started trying to enact it, I was just rushing the process as much as possible because I wanted to get back to cutting calories right away and then gave up after a couple days when I realized I'd have to "lose control" for longer than I wanted. I guess I just hated the gluttony that felt involved in lifestyle, and it could be because I'm a recovering binge eater/compulsive overeater and there's a lot of negative feelings associated with when I gain weight. At the same time, I know that I've learned enough cognitive strategies and techniques to be capable of breaking my food obsession whenever it develops, so it makes me less afraid of the idea of gaining a lot of weight. But it's still a conflicting thing that I'm super indecisive over. I won't know how to decide on a stopping point either.