I am kinda exploring my kink for weight gain quite a while now and kinda come to the conclusion, that building a Partnership From the scratch as a bigger person is pure luck (so an extremly low chance). The Main thing I got from gaining so far is limited activities in sports/ training, less social events with (former) friends and probably less health. The more I realize that the main thing i got so far is getting lonlier the more I want to get Back to healthy/ athletic because being lonely just straight up sucks and in my opinion no ( fictional ) sexual desire/ own body preference can be strong enough to beat a lingering lonlieness. That even led to depression and less Motivation to keep up with advances in life and feels like up to five years of my life had zero evolving of character and personality (or even worse more a decline of both). Does anybody ever felt they are mentally sick instead of just having uncommon beliefs because this preference is so rare that it really feels something is utterly wrong with you? For me that impression is getting more evident with every month going by without any real improvements in getting close to a real life relationship, which is based on normal behaviour/ ideas/ values + me being bigger. I am pretty sure I cant be the only one making this rather sad experience, right?
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