I've really been taking a look at potentially starting up the intentional gain again. I'm definitely liking the idea of cutting loose some and I noticed it some when I intentionally cramming a few little Debbie Snack cakes tonight. I definitely get excited at the thought of finally giving myself permission to fatten up and the idea of just not caring about what anyone has to say is starting to seem a bit more attainable. I do worry a little bit over being able to remain physically active and health longer term (I don't mind being a bit unhealthy during the initial "blimping up" phase lol). Honestly, there is a bit of eroticism in the idea of my health markers taking a dip from what I'd be doing to myself 😅.
There is definitely still a part of me that worries a little bit about comments from friends and family (although that part has definitely gotten smaller). But overall, I feel like my concerns would be moreso outgrowing clothes and overall negative health impacts (in spite of the eroticism of both lol).
I actually recently had a Doctor's appointment and the doctor said that everything seemed good, so my next appointment should probably just be my next annual physical and I kind of thought it might be fun to show up for that appointment noticably larger 😳.
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