Has anyone else struggled with this? In my late teens and early twenties I let myself ballon up to 300lbs, lost 90 lbs then kind of accidentally got obese again at college.
For a number of years after that I lost interest and focused on other things. I have gotten down to 10% body fat and remained there but for the past two years, every three months or so, I am consumed by the desire to become a massive gainer/feedee. All I can think about for long ass stretches is "ruining" my abs and fit body and really giving in.
I am straight and have always been into BBWs, I am married to a normal sized girl and she is actually actively losing weight, I wouldn't want to force her to gain. However, I can't stop looking at ex-jocks and gainers, always with heads out of shot, and fantasizing about being them. What's worse, I love the idea of a platonic gainer friend or letting a man stuff me, but I wouldn't be interested in anything further.
I thought I had this under control, but now I worry my marriage is on false pretenses, she likes lean guys and wouldn't be into gaining or feeding.
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