I always figured that if something happened and I found myself single again, I'd no matter what want to gain at least fifty pounds, see how I felt, then hopefully gain another fifty. Preferably with the support of an ffa, but I'd do it even without.
But, with an encourager, I suspect that my willpower to pause at fifty would not last long. The first fifty would come on so fast that I'd in no way be ready to stop indulging, so after a mere week or two of denial I'd declare all was good and start indulging again. With the affirmation that the first fifty had been fine, and with a whole new fifty to go, then I'd probably indulge in some pretty aggressive gaining behavior that I've always wanted to try (shakes, heavy cream in everything, building a 24/7 schedule to never really have my stomach empty.
With that,and how easily I gain, that second fifty might happen in a few months, so after a hundred I'd just be hitting my stride. I'd know I should stop, but the habits I'd built up would carry me on to a lot more weigth. That fat, and with a natural tendency to be lazy, I'd be hitting the point where a lot of activities would be getting uncomfortable if not painful .... Except of course for eating.
At that point I think I'd admit that some part of me has always wanted to see how fat I could get while retaining some mobility. Of course, over the coming years my idea of some mobility might go from walking couple of blocks to walking to the car to walking that far with a cane to being able to waddle to my mobility scooter ....
8 years