General

Feedees WANT to be fat, very, very badly, but in many cases will keep themselves skinny, hungry, and unhappy because they want a feeder of the desired gender to get turned on by seeing them gain, and to love them and take care of them when they're a SSBBP. My irl feedee got up to 275 on purpose in college, but lost the weight because he wanted a female feeder to find him attractive. He had to wait more than 20 years before he found me.

I find "normal" sexuality, the thin ideal, and dieting extremely disgusting.

Not exactly disgusted with myself but I was sort of an avoider for a long time. Childhood programming and good ol' fashioned Catholic shame that it was wrong or weird. But of course the wrongness is part of the draw, isn't it? At least for me. After I fully embraced it there was no turning back.

Not disgusted, just embarrassed when it comes to my desire to get fat myself (thanks to my father who scolded me for being a chubby kid).

But in my taste in women (chubby to somewhat fat), I'm neither disgusted nor ashamed.

I feel kinda guilty. The objectification and sexually orientated relationships seem loveless and shallow. In where your attraction relies solely on how heavy your partner is.
Then again, when I think with my nut, I really couldn't give a shit.

Never once did I ever feel guilty or disgusted with my preference for fat people or for being fat. I have only felt disgusted by intolerant people who narrowly believe that only thinness is attractive and acceptable.

I am never disgusted about loving fat and stuffing, but I do have to spend a lot of time and effort reconciling it with my faith.

At face level, this fetish is literally love of flesh. As someone who wants to be led by the spirit, that is a hard thing to accept. Also, spiritual growth often requires self-denial, but feeding myself to my absolute limit is far from self-denial.

That is part of the reason why I take such long breaks from participating in this forum and in real life stuffing. I deny myself some opportunities in indulge, and I don't subscribe to tying feederism to laziness or abject hedonism.

I am still able to do this without moral guilt by remembering to give thanks to God for the food, for being able to enjoy it, and for the strength to push myself. I stuff myself like an athlete in the pursuit of a new personal best. God made me, he knows what I like.

Some men like big boobs; I like big women.

Some like domination games; I like getting my wife fat despite her not really leaning that way, and having her accept she's fat.

Sometimes I feel guilty about not having her have the life of a thin woman she yearns for but then I remember how she does nothing to be that way. So, she's fat again now (220-ish) and eventually I'm growing her fatter.

Honestly, yes...

But not for the reasons one may think...

The biggest reason, is the fact of how hard it its to find that partner, what I am looking for, in life...

Many times I wish I could just be turned on by what society considers "normal"

yet... it just doesnt happen. Ive been on several long term dates... and yeah, when it comes to fun time in bed, it just dont happen. At the end of the day, fat women are just sexy and it is what it is...

You can't change what you are "hard programmed" to like, so to speak. Its like a part of your personality, something that cannot be changed...

Faith is a whole nother aspect to this... wont even go there... but yeah, indulging not good...

Welcome to the real battle of fat enjoyment I say

Yep... which is why sometimes you just have to go for what makes you happy.

The real turnoff though, is the high number of women who just pretend to be into this to gain $$$ or profit. But that is a whole nother story haha