Gaining

As I was gaining I ate a lot and pretty much all day some days.
I got used to eating that way and would over shoot my goal weight by 20 lbs or so.
I binge ate quite a bit on the weekends and after a few years of over eating I had gained way more than I ever expected to.
I developed a compulsive overeating habit/disorder and it has caused me to continue to gain.
I can control it most of the time but I still snack some if I am around food so I try to keep snacks away during the day.
I still eat way too much come meal time LOLOL

It most definitely worked for you over the years! [You food intake regiment]

I freely admit that I think about dropping the weight. Mostly because I'm tired of hearing my pain specialist (lumbar fusion almost 2 years ago, still hurtin' ) point to my belly and say "that's not helping". Grrrr....

But I love seeing myself outgrow my clothes, seeing that short fat man in the mirror, and walk around proudly rocking my growing belly. I finally started getting a little bit of a jiggle.

Oddly, my regular doctor doesn't say anything about my weight; my blood work, blood pressure and everything are perfect. If they weren't that would be the only real reason I'd lose the weight.

I don't think I'd know how to diet anymore, anyway. I think I've reached the point of no return psychologically and physically. I just wish I was gaining faster.