Fat experiences

workingOnIt:
I think that the stress you're feeling is extremely understandable in your situation. It seems like you have pretty high standards for yourself (something I know all to well) which makes it really difficult to deal with the already difficult task of accepting sexual preferences that "deviate from the norm".

As hard as it is it might be to swallow, I am very confident in saying you can actively try and "force yourself away from this fetish" with all your might, but it's not going anywhere. I spent years trying to ignore my feelings and trying to convince myself that I could "get away from this." It doesn't work like that though, and in the end, that's really because it's a part of you. With that being said, I really really can relate to the stress your feeling in these circumstances.

I promise you though, if you find a way to manage the stress for the time being and give yourself the space to be open with yourself, that you likely won't always be this overwhelmed. You're already posting on this website which means at some level you're already working towards a level of self-acceptance. As you keep working through this process you'll get more comfortable with what you like and will be able to set aside unrealistic expectations more and more and see it in an unbiased light.

Having this fetish doesn't mean "you are doomed to be lazy." Having this fetish doesn't mean "you can't find a girlfriend who loves you for who you are." Having this fetish doesn't mean "you can't excel in your studies." It doesn't mean any of those things, or any of the other million things your anxiety is telling you it means. It's just an attraction like any other, another part of a perfectly normal and healthy sexuality.

Sending you positive vibes to get through this stressful time! Relax! Have a snack haha

MrCupeKe:
Now I know this is a feederism forum where we talk about gaining and stuffing, but this feels related enough and I hope to be welcomed with useful feedback and not be told to take my thoughts elsewhere.

I’m confused right now. I’ve had my belly fetish my whole life and have hid it for most of it, and been roughly ashamed because of how my family/girlfriend has responded to it. I understand their POV though. I feel lost and it’s affecting my real lifestyle. I want to give in because I feel like I’ve been given a fetish to love and be attracted to, but it comes with a heap of problems that I’m not sure I can deal with right now. I want to focus and do my damndest in college, I want a high work ethic, I want to make the best damn decisions I possibly can, but actively forcing myself away from my fetish stresses me the fuck out, but when I give in I’m constantly anxious and stressed and... if I try to gain or bloat myself, I feel horrible later on, like eating junk food and feeling heavy doesn’t have a good outcome later on. Not only that, but I kinda feel like it adds to my laziness or my procrastination. It doesn’t make me motivated to work towards my goals I have in life. I see people who workout actively and look great and healthy... but that’s where I question myself. Is what I’m doing really worth it?

I’m so fucking stuck right now, and I don’t know why I’m writing about this on a fetish website. I guess I’m hoping to find some advice on how I can set myself back on my path or look for validation. Thank you if you’ve read this far, sorry it’s so long.