Fat experiences

You're just living out a deep desire of yours that is a part of you. You shouldn't hide parts of yourself from him, but at the same time, how can this be disloyal, when it's just being true to who and what you are?

I distinctly remember when I "crossed over" (I think I posted about it here actually) at 187lbs. As someone who had always been skinny/fit it was rather shocking. The first 10-15 pounds I had gained only took me from being "really skinny" to "normal" so I was used to having it in my head that being overweight would NEVER happen to me. Of course it did, and I've put on another 10lbs since then. Now whenever I think about losing weight my goal is to get back to 187, which is kind of funny considering at the time it felt unspeakably fat.

I still can't believe I am past the 200 mark! I got to 200 without even trying or knowing until I stepped on a scale after wondering why my jeans were a bit more snug than normal.