Fat experiences

Yeah idk how it would have gone had I discovered I wanted to be fat back in the day I’d imagine I would have gotten a lot of hell cause my dad got me into the wrestling and stuff, encouraged the cutting of weight when it came time… yeah and like the whole internet stuff I couldn’t even imagine, I got caught just watching vanilla porn when I was 13 and it was hell. Parents made me talk to the priest had to go to counseling.

I realized I was different pretty early on. I was naturally underweight, and I hated it. My family would always say how envious they were of my size, and I couldn't understand why. Didn't help that nothing I did would make the weight stick.

I remember googling in desperation, "How to gain weight." And that's how I discovered feedism.

In addition to the **** I had to go through because I've been chubby/overweight my entire life, I also myself in my teenage years to be struggling to 'enjoy' the woman I was 'supposed to enjoy'.

It was during this time I instead found myself being attracted more to the even fatter people around me and even the idea of fattening up myself to become like them, which thanks to now having a laptop to invoke some privacy, lead me to go online and discover the various online 'fat fetish' communities.

Although annoyingly one of the earlier ones I found was hosted on a relatively small social media platform which shut the section down because it was 'unhealthy' and I should 'seek advice'.

IRL though, things improved when I graduated from secondary school and moved onto Sixth Form (High School equivalent) because all the A-holes who caused me problems weren't there. Uni also later helped because people gave even less of a toss about my weight.

That said, I was still on/off about my gaining/preference, only formally accepting it when I was in my 20s since I could foresee myself become even more obese anyway and no longer having to worry as much whilst enjoying it.

Absolutely. I can relate with a lot of what's been said on this thread.

Fat men always made me "feel funny", even before I started discovering my sexuality. After I actually developed and understood what sexual attraction was, for a long time I kept my preferences hidden. Sometimes I would stop and think about what would happen if the people I knew found out about what I like, and it was a bit scary for me.

Since I came out of the closet, however, I'm much more ok about it. I'll never reveal the feedism part of it but my friends know about my type. Telling them was a weight off my shoulders, (no pun intended). The sensation of being different never goes away but I'm not worried about it anymore. It doesn't make me inferior to everybody else!

Kudos to you! I'm glad you have people in your life who love and accept you.

Yes. I was as young as i remember with a B belly.
Aside from extreme abuse from it people in school bullied me for the 'tire' in the pants which didnt fit right, i didnt understand why my belly button was dividing my stomach, etc.

They are all pricks. You are a beautiful person. And no matter what you look like on the outside, you are worthy of love and respect.