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I was a chubby kid who enjoyed food and wasnt chastised for it much in my early years.

I developed IBD (Crohns specifically) and I often wonder if a lot of my “kink” is living vicariously through my wife. She was a fat teen but a skinny kid without much food in the later USSR.

Watching her overindulge and grow “out of control” able to eat 3 burgers at a restaurant without shame; watching her do from an xs when we met to an xxl in 7 years and enjoy it all felt very peaceful especially when I have to watch what I eat constantly and during flare-ups often find myself unable to eat most things and having weight loss constantly.

I was a chubby kid who enjoyed food and wasnt chastised for it much in my early years.

I developed IBD (Crohns specifically) and I often wonder if a lot of my “kink” is living vicariously through my wife. She was a fat teen but a skinny kid without much food in the later USSR.

Watching her overindulge and grow “out of control” able to eat 3 burgers at a restaurant without shame; watching her do from an xs when we met to an xxl in 7 years and enjoy it all felt very peaceful especially when I have to watch what I eat constantly and during flare-ups often find myself unable to eat most things and having weight loss constantly.

I've always had a low appetite despite being interested in this fetish. I just don't feel hungry or enjoy eating very much. It has always sort of amazed me how people can get so much pleasure just from eating and food because I don't really experience this. For me eating is more purposeful. I know I have to. I even want to gain a little, so I have to eat more. I've been trying to work towards eating larger portions. And for the most part, I can do it. But I don't personally love eating the way feedees and foodies do.