Romy:
God, I didn't think my food addiction was that big.
I have a lot of anxiety and I can't wait to eat delicious things.
My husband is inflexible about my diet, but I already cheated, I have my nurse and my niece.
Yesterday I asked my nurse to let me have a hamburger and then a chocolate cake. Today I asked my niece to bring me fried chicken with potatoes and 5 bars of chocolate.
The problem is that my husband doesn't know this and if he finds out my nurse could have problems.
The truth is I'm starving and I have a serious anxiety problem. My nurse didn't do things voluntarily, I basically ordered her to do them.
I broke my diet but it was necessary to calm down a little.
The struggle is real. I don't think anyone here will think less of you for being weak. But overcoming food addictions is more than just willpower.
I can't force you to be honest with your husband about your struggles, but we both know you need to be honest with him.
Do you have any additional support besides your husband? Are you familiar with the resources in your area?
I don't know what country you are in, but there are helplines, support groups, one-on-one help from experts, etc. I'd look into it.