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MRFATS53   United Kingdom
Joined 2 years
MRFATS53:
OK, bad choice in husband and compulsive over eating accepted but my guess is that you enjoy the overeating bit as well as being a fat person - love to know if I'm correct here!

Ditzy:
You are correct in a sense I do love my body shape and size to me it feels right.
Compulsive overeating pushed me over the edge from being plus sized to being very fat.
I really didn't plan on being over 400 lbs but because I don't have a fat fetish I didn't watch the scale.
I could tell I was gaining a lot but really didn't care if I did at that point.
Binging and compulsive overeating will cause most people to gain quite a bit.[/quote]

I guess at 400+ pounds you do qualify for what is often called SSBBW. Many or most of these women acknowledge as being addicted to food. Over eating disorder is perhaps another way of saying the same thing. Anyway, you are clearly not alone in liking the way you look so not all bad!
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Ditzy   United States
Joined 11 years
When gainers say they are addicted to food is sounds more metaphoric.
Compulsive overeating is more like an addiction because you can't stop at times and don't care if you gain or not.
The drive to eat is so strong sometimes its hard to control.
I am a recovering drug addict so I know a bit about addiction.
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MRFATS53   United Kingdom
Joined 2 years
Ditzy:
When gainers say they are addicted to food is sounds more metaphoric.
Compulsive overeating is more like an addiction because you can't stop at times and don't care if you gain or not.
The drive to eat is so strong sometimes its hard to control.
I am a recovering drug addict so I know a bit about addiction.


Years ago I was dating someone who seemed to know about these things. She said that some people have 'additive' personalities - perhaps that is you having food and drug additions. That's not really me though - I simply enjoy overeating along with the prospect of gaining weight plus the pleasure of taste, naturally. The 'reward' comes later in the 'hit' I get when scales tell me I've gained some more weight. This is probably the same for most feedees / gainers. What is/was the drug addiction you mention?
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Ditzy   United States
Joined 11 years
My drug addictions were cocaine and heroin.
I was playing in a band and touring a lot so I fell into using both.
Rehab was not fun and getting "clean" was extremely hard.
Addictive personalities are a thing but that was never mentioned to me by rehab doctors.
I find compulsive overeating not really the same thing but an urge that is very strong.
You don't get a high so to speak.
I was eating just because it looked or sounded good and no matter how much I ate the urge to eat was still there.
Its really hard to explain it all.
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Munchies   United States
Joined 3 years
Ditzy:
My drug addictions were cocaine and heroin.
I was playing in a band and touring a lot so I fell into using both.
Rehab was not fun and getting "clean" was extremely hard.
Addictive personalities are a thing but that was never mentioned to me by rehab doctors.
I find compulsive overeating not really the same thing but an urge that is very strong.
You don't get a high so to speak.
I was eating just because it looked or sounded good and no matter how much I ate the urge to eat was still there.
Its really hard to explain it all.


Kudos on you for staying clean for so long. I know it's not easy getting clean, so it's awesome that you're keeping up the hard work.

That said, I hope you can get to a point where you only overeat because you want to.
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MRFATS53   United Kingdom
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Ditzy:
My drug addictions were cocaine and heroin.
I was playing in a band and touring a lot so I fell into using both.
Rehab was not fun and getting "clean" was extremely hard.
Addictive personalities are a thing but that was never mentioned to me by rehab doctors.
I find compulsive overeating not really the same thing but an urge that is very strong.
You don't get a high so to speak.
I was eating just because it looked or sounded good and no matter how much I ate the urge to eat was still there.
Its really hard to explain it all.

Munchies:
Kudos on you for staying clean for so long. I know it's not easy getting clean, so it's awesome that you're keeping up the hard work.

That said, I hope you can get to a point where you only overeat because you want to.


Totally agree with Munchies here. Very well done you.
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Ditzy   United States
Joined 11 years
Ditzy:
My drug addictions were cocaine and heroin.
I was playing in a band and touring a lot so I fell into using both.
Rehab was not fun and getting "clean" was extremely hard.
Addictive personalities are a thing but that was never mentioned to me by rehab doctors.
I find compulsive overeating not really the same thing but an urge that is very strong.
You don't get a high so to speak.
I was eating just because it looked or sounded good and no matter how much I ate the urge to eat was still there.
Its really hard to explain it all.

Munchies:
Kudos on you for staying clean for so long. I know it's not easy getting clean, so it's awesome that you're keeping up the hard work.

That said, I hope you can get to a point where you only overeat because you want to.


Thanks I appreciate the kind words.
I rarely talk about that stuff on this site.
I try to keep that stuff in the past.
It was a fun part of my life and a dark part as well.
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Munchies   United States
Joined 3 years
Ditzy:
My drug addictions were cocaine and heroin.
I was playing in a band and touring a lot so I fell into using both.
Rehab was not fun and getting "clean" was extremely hard.
Addictive personalities are a thing but that was never mentioned to me by rehab doctors.
I find compulsive overeating not really the same thing but an urge that is very strong.
You don't get a high so to speak.
I was eating just because it looked or sounded good and no matter how much I ate the urge to eat was still there.
Its really hard to explain it all.

Munchies:
Kudos on you for staying clean for so long. I know it's not easy getting clean, so it's awesome that you're keeping up the hard work.

That said, I hope you can get to a point where you only overeat because you want to.

Ditzy:
Thanks I appreciate the kind words.
I rarely talk about that stuff on this site.
I try to keep that stuff in the past.
It was a fun part of my life and a dark part as well.


I mean, ultimately speaking, it's none of our business either way. What you choose to share or withhold is up to you.

Either way, you are right. This is a part of your past, and it does not define who you are now.
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Ditzy   United States
Joined 11 years
Munchies:
I mean, ultimately speaking, it's none of our business either way. What you choose to share or withhold is up to you.

Either way, you are right. This is a part of your past, and it does not define who you are now.[/quote]

I think it has helped me to "unload" some of that here.
I'm a very private person and letting that out has been a good thing.
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Jonathan856   United States
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Ditzy, you are a wise person. You seem to focus on the quality of your words over the quantity of your words, and I respect you for that. It is this that keeps me reading your posts. You seem street-smart, and you are lovely.

As for anyone wanting to try binge eating, be careful what you wish for. If you were to try all the small habits that contribute to this, it may be hard to stop.
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