Fat experiences

i remember watching a really old YouTube video that covered harmful feederism. I was immediately turned off so I never explored it. Many years later (about 3 months ago) I met a FFA and we got to talking about it and she introduced me to the world and let me know it doesn't have to be on the extreme side like my original introduction years ago. so here i am and have met some really nice ppl so far.

I'm disabled and get help with daily tasks from personal care assistants. When I was a teenager there were two primary ones who helped my parents. One was fairly thin, the other very obese. I had a very powerful crush on her.
I always had access to the internet, so it was easy to find the community.

I always struggled being less than chubby, but noticed whenever someone would comment on my weight (especially around the holidays) I wouldn’t feel upset or shameful but embarrassingly excited? And then it was pretty much over the first time I tried stuffing myself for fun, I enjoyed it way too much 🫢

I’ve always had a love of food and eating. I have also always admired fat people. I remember being a little kid and being in awe of fat adults and wondering how much I would have to eat to become this fat.

I have always been atracticted to 'bigger girls' and well my family hates 'chub'... Yet after years of trying to stay thini just finally let myself go n not diet anymore. Dont regret it one bit..

For me not sure when, but I started as an FA, exploring sites and that, which intensified when i was roomed in university with a BBW, who wasnt shy about eating.

Over the years, i had lost weight and had been bulking up, but i injured myself and stopped going to the gym but kept eating like i was bulking lol i think thats where i became a feedee. I was always a foodie, i love to eat and I love food but it wasnt until i started gainign weight that i started to enjoy that side of it. I am still also a FA, i love seeing big women get bigger and am envious of men bigger than me haha

I had an admiration of fat people; especially my two aunts who were fat. Since then, I would double the amount of food and calories. I gotten a little chubby back then. Now, I gotten fat. I did lose some weight; but, I wasn’t comfortable with trying to be skinny. I regained the weight. I do a whole lot of snacking and drinking Frappuccinos which making me fat.