Submission and domination

I Looooove blackmail stories. They do quite a number on me!

Same! I think in my mind it is the most realistic scenario for my own weight gain journey, because I am so wishy washy about what I want the blackmail end would almost be an excuse to me to finally give in.

I guess I have two? One either that I’m secretly being made to gain weight. Weight gain powder snuck into meals, extra baked goods and calories at my side at all times. Secret weight gain supplements that will increase appetite and/or slow metabolism. I’ll deny the gain for a bit but won’t be long until I find it hard to shed off the pounds. Or give in.

The other is definitely darker, it’s literally the idea of me being kidnapped and force fed. Helplessly tied up and made to eat far too much fatty foods or guzzle down thickening milk shakes through a tube, done either from my captor’s hands or hooked up to a machine. Nothing to do but give up and allow my body to swell painfully and handsomely. Eventually becoming too heavy to move, so the restraints really aren’t necessary anymore.
God I wanna try funnel feeding…

The SM origin of my pseudo on Internet when I transitioned socially to a woman.

When I was a student, there was a very fat and old lunch lady with a “ugly” face at the university restaurant. The students called her ironically “Aphrodite” (goddess of love).

[Later I wrote a SM fat humiliation novel (not finished, only in French) where Arnold, a fitness-student, is force-fed and feminized (as revenge for cruel mockery) by a monstrously obese lunch lady who is called “Aphrodite” by students. All lunch ladies at the university restaurant are very obese, in order to cut the appetite of students (for the State to pay less money). Though this objective may not be achieved, because during the break, these lunch ladies eat huge amounts of food, since it is the only fun they have in life, as they can’t find men interested in them, have never sex and get never affection from men. After his MtF transition, Arnold (now Cindy) has no choice but to work at the university restaurant where she is degraded by students and to sleep (as a heterosexual man who is horrified by having sex with a man) with a sadist very old man who loves to disgust women in financial need with his nightmarish body destroyed by time. With viagra, this hell lasts the whole night. Cindy’s everyday life is a torture and there is no way back. She eats her feelings and gains more and more weight. One day she is so fat that she has to wear a steel corset at work in order for the largest available working clothes to fit her, which is more and more painful as she gets fatter.]

When I chose the nickname “Aphrodita”, I didn't know that my face would be so pretty for a few years at the beginning, before time finally destroys this beauty (not happened yet, I’m still a fat true goddess of love).