Fat experiences

I've noticed with the weight I'm at & actually for the last few years, I can only buy shirts in one particular brand. Can't buy them at other places like Walmart. Walmart's biggest size is a 3XL but it's a tight 3XL. So I resort to Carhartt & they have big & tall sizes which are very helpful.

I'm still on the smaller side (220 but a fair bit of that is muscle so not much of my weight is in my belly) but now that I'm actively gaining weight it's the little things that stand out to me the most. Like I have to work a lot harder to reach down to grab something, and my center of mass has changed so I've had to change the way I stand up from sitting on the floor. Also this is hard to describe but just the act of taking up more space is a really weird feeling. Like I've gained weight before when I was putting on muscle, but muscle is much denser than fat so even though I was heavier I wasn't really that much bigger. But now after putting on 25 lbs of fat since the beginning of this year, there's a weird disconnect between how much space my brain thinks I take up versus how much I actually take up.

Clothes and having to spend on bigger clothes >

when picking things off the ground my belly really gets in the way of that!

sitting in a moving car makes me wobble so much more that before- distracting sometimes!

and pants being too tight! it's unoriginal, but a good measure of progress~

My clothes getting more snug and tighter.

When I was hard core gaining, I noticed:

- My appetite and capacity continually growing
- increasing difficulty touching my belly button
- Fitting differently behind the wheel of my car, until I ultimately outgrew it and had to move up to a van.
- Needing to set the thermostat progressively lower because my fat was keeping me warm.
- Finding it harder to navigate bathroom stalls until I eventually got too fat for the ones that aren't designed for accessibility.
- Others no longer noticing big gains (because 500 doesn't look much different than 470)

Since I've been skinny my whole life a lot of things still surprise me. I don't know if there's a better way to describe it but I'm simply not used to my own body being in my way when I move. Right now it especially noticable when I reach down to grab things and especially when I tie my shoes. Like I'm not to the point where it's difficult or anything I just have to reach slightly more than I'm used to. I can only imagine what it'll be like when I'm 100+ lbs heavier

The rolls under my arm getting thick enough that my arms rest at a wider angle. And then those rolls joining on my back. And then those rolls growing another roll beneath them...

Getting fat makes you understand why the Fat CJ character model from San Andreas held his arms goofy. This is so true you can’t hold your arms in normally, literaly blocked by rolls haha

When I went to a thrift store to find jeans that fit, I found I was actually getting sweaty just from trying on the pants! At least I'm not getting out of breath yet, but be a weird feeling...