Fat experiences

Karenjenk:
For three weeks now I have needed help getting out of bed. The first time i was in shock. I've tied a rope to the bedframe and door to use to help me up and that worked for a while but now I cant do it by myself.

I never intended to be like this. trapped in so many ways. Most of the time is is embarrassing and degrading. I just don't understand how this also is exciting sometimes. I should be ashamed only

Hun, are you safe right now?

Because the more of your posts I read, the more concerned for your safety I become.

Karenjenk:
Im safe.
its not liek soneone is tying me up and feeding me.... not for over a year anyway. i loved those sessions.
if only there was a way to stuff and feel full and not gain so much.
we talked this morning and he said he was committed ot helping my by buying better food. lean mean and salads and the like.

i still want, need?, to make him happy though. but what happens to me of smething happens to him?

Hun, are you safe right now?

Because the more of your posts I read, the more concerned for your safety I become.

Karenjenk:
Im safe.
its not liek soneone is tying me up and feeding me.... not for over a year anyway. i loved those sessions.
if only there was a way to stuff and feel full and not gain so much.
we talked this morning and he said he was committed ot helping my by buying better food. lean mean and salads and the like.

i still want, need?, to make him happy though. but what happens to me of smething happens to him?

Munchies:
Have y'all discussed that? Because every couple needs to have a plan about what they'd do if the other was no longer around - especially if one person is reliant on the other.

Seen what happens when those plans aren't in place. Not just got divorce or abandonment. But other things too like job loss, illness, or death.

It's an uncomfy conversation, but one you need to have - especially for your sake.

Hun, are you safe right now?

Because the more of your posts I read, the more concerned for your safety I become.

Karenjenk:
Im safe.
its not liek soneone is tying me up and feeding me.... not for over a year anyway. i loved those sessions.
if only there was a way to stuff and feel full and not gain so much.
we talked this morning and he said he was committed ot helping my by buying better food. lean mean and salads and the like.

i still want, need?, to make him happy though. but what happens to me of smething happens to him?

Munchies:
Have y'all discussed that? Because every couple needs to have a plan about what they'd do if the other was no longer around - especially if one person is reliant on the other.

Seen what happens when those plans aren't in place. Not just got divorce or abandonment. But other things too like job loss, illness, or death.

It's an uncomfy conversation, but one you need to have - especially for your sake.

Karenjenk:
We have, i have. he wont take it seriously. some of you haveb een sending me messages abotu the fatnasy part of this and yes it is exciting. a total rush. but the reality is exactly what you say. my fear is not that he will run off and leave me but that he will be in a car accident and i will have to be a burden to someone else. its one thing to have him help me get up. it would be a totally different thing if my sister had to move back in or have my BFF take care of me until im on my own again.
425 this morning.
i have hand weights ive been using to build up stregnth.
and ive been walking for 4-5 minutes at a time. several times a day. i'll do mare as im able.

Johnnyafire:
My boss literally pulled me aside and made me get a bigger uniform. She was gentle enough but it was a shock.

I never realised how small it had gotten.

Need to take a picture or something.