Submission and domination

I used to day dream about doing that service where you can pay people to kidnap you or whatever, if that was even a real thing. I love to someone signing on, and in their description of what they want to happen, how long, etc, they say something to the effect of "I want to be forced to gain 30lbs before I'm let go", only for 30 to come and go because the captors are either like "you're right, this IS hot! We're going to keep going" or "you put that on so fast, there's no way you don't want another 30 on top, riiiiight?" Or something to that effect.
I've also always appreciated unrealistic realism, like sure, they can eat 5 large pizzas, but they're going to struggle really, really hard, and it's going to be a painful endeavor, they might actually hurt themselves if they're not careful. They're sitting there dangerously bloated, should go to the ER no doubt, and they're tapping in a doordash order.

Forever; I have had an intense desire to become extremely fat! Not just kingsized; but enormous! But societal demands and reality controlled that desire.
But it never left me! I once tried it on my own and gained 75lbs, freaked out and went back.
I have concluded that the only way to discover the me I’ve always wanted, is to have all choice removed from my control!
Much of my time is imagining that I am trapped and imprisoned, by a woman that has an intense desire to make her man fat beyond belief!
She would keep me imprisoned until I grow too fat to escape!
The rolls of blubber just pile on me as she just hammers me with food!
Now you see my dilemma ?!