Fat experiences

I remember at about 8 we visited some cousins whom I did not see too often. My male cousin was shirtless and had this puppy fat potbelly that left me mesmerized. That night I went home and could not get his belly out of my mind. I started pillow stuffing and the rest is history. Ironically, he is now fairly slim and I think I out weigh him by a good 40 lbs.

My earliest was around 7th or 8th grade. A girl a grade ahead of me had a crush on me, but I was too young, shy, and foolish to take advantage of it. Even at that age she was quite chesty, Even then I could tell she was going to grow. I always imaginged her with even larger breasts and a huge round belly, laying on a bed with her arms and legs spread out across the bed. Waiting to be fed and grow her belly and breasts even more for me....

For me, it was drinking whole bottles of soft drink and feeling/watching my belly swell with the bubbling liquid. I must have been 7 or 8 years old when I first started doing it.

I would also drink as much as I could manage from the shower head whilst having a bath. That was my definition of 'play time' as a kid in those days lol

It's interesting that there don't seem to be many people where it developed late in their lives. It might happen that they understood it or embraced it late, but its earliest signs tend always to be in childhood.

I think the earliest signs for me that I can remember, was with characters I made when I was young, maybe 9 or 10 years old, or actually 12 at the most, my characters weren't big, but they were big eaters, I noticed recently that almost all of my characters, mainly the male ones, I think I also wanted to do it with the girls but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to do it, till this day I don't know why, my males would big eaters and almost ways hungry and eating, I don't know if that's a sign but that's the first thing that came to my mind, now that I think about it I always liked seeing greedy boys and men, girls I don't think I saw that a lot, especially in movies and stuff, or the movies and shows I watched at least, or maybe I did but I just don't remember, so I guess I wasn't as exposed to it on the female side as I was on the male side, and this went on for years until this day at present, obviously I think it evolved over time of course, but that's the first thing that comes to my mind when I think of my first signs.

For me I think it was the fact that I had a very loving and affectionate Aunt whom, at a young age I must have imprinted upon, because the type of girl I find physically attractive today matches her archetype-phenotype perfectly. My Aunt was a bbw, brunette, tanner skinned, and brown eyes, and my wife is pretty much the same way (same body type too). After that I think it was the Charlotte's web cartoon as well as the others that mentioned it. For some reason seeing Templeton stagger about that big fascinated me, even though he was a guy, and a rat. I think the thing that finally cemented it for me in adulthood was when I first started going to college in my Algebra class there was this really cute blonde girl, who was bottom heavy and probably about 180-200 lbs slightly across from me and to the front of the classroom. I was like good luck trying to concentrate; after that I knew I had a thing for bigger women.

I was the kid that stared at fat men in public spaces and made them uncomfortable, but then I hit that fun age of 6 - 7 and I was told that it wasn't polite to stare

my mom had a friend who was about 400 pounds and i remember being fascinated by her and def attracted to her. I was probably 9. Also when i was around 9 my sister and I would make videos and I would stuff my self with pillows . One time I put on a couple jackets and I looked fatter and felt some weird feelings. And that totally spies episode with the feedism hints was one I always remembered.. oh yeah and I had a character on this site meez.com around 9 years old and I would make the character fat and on top of that put on the outfit that made the character fatter than that

Wow I came to this way later than the vast majority of you.

Size and weight never occurred to me as a kid. I grew up in Southern California and was just a really active kid. I had friends who were my size and others who were big, I never cared or really observed that as a thing that mattered at all.

My best friend in high school was super duper skinny and tiny though and I remember thinking man, that must suck! I was curvy but thin, boobs and hips and booty.

I was in the Army for awhile and extremely fit and enjoyed being so, it wasn’t unusual for me to wear revealing clothing and show off.

I didn’t think about weight or food or anything to do with them one way or another.

Then I got pregnant and got huge. My boyfriend wasn’t happy but it was temporary so I didn’t care. After the baby I went right back to being skinny.

Then a different partner and two more kids later I had filled out more but naturally would lose weight without trying.

I vividly remember I was doing laundry naked and my partner walked by and looked at me and said he was gonna go buy me a box of crispy creme donuts because my butt was getting to small.

I was really intrigued by this but it’s not like we talked more about it or pursued it. I don’t have any recollection of him purposely encouraging or trying to actually add calories to my diet. The idea that he may have been doing so is kinda exciting tho!

Eventually our relationship ended and I had another partner who explicitly told me, I’ve always wanted to date someone with a big booty and he’d touch my ass and juggle it and smack it ALL THE TIME. Totally worshipped it and it was really fun.

Then I got really sick and was in and out of the hospital all of 2010, almost died and weight just fell off me. I went from a size 10 to a size 4 and I was so insecure about my small size.

I remember being sad my thighs didn’t touch anymore and my boobs were non existent. I complained a lot and felt like everything that made me sexy and womanly disappeared.

That relationship ended and I started dating the man I’d date for the next 8 years.... he loved tiny women. Tinier the better. I felt too big for his ideal tastes and I was small...

I don’t do monogamy, I’ve always had open relationships and so I also dated others while with him... and this is kinda important and good and instrumental.

Over the last four years my weight started to increase, especially after having a surgery where they had to remove half my abdominal muscles because of a tumor. It seemed like the more my weight increased the less frequency of sex we’d have. And he never touched my body the way other men did with excitement and passion and this really wore on me because I was so in love with him. I’d ask him about it and he’d deny it had anything to do with my size. I’d drop it but still I knew.

As my size went up my comfort in my body went up. I liked being full and soft. It felt sexy. I felt more confident and it showed because other men I dated always gave me that feedback and they were so into sex and my body and me too.

Over the last two years my feelings about fat and my body really grew and I noticed my relationship with those feelings was one that created feelings of naughtiness for the first time. I had a bdsm play partner that I asked to use my growing fat body to humiliate me and he did and it was so hot. I enjoyed when he’d call me fat or pig or saggy, even ugly and disgusting.

It didn’t shame me, it empowered me. I’m sure it helped that even tho he was saying those words his physical and carnal desires showed through and he always demonstrated with his actions how much he desired and wanted me. It was a lot of fun and probably instrumental in helping cope with the physical rejection I was experiencing with the man I was in love with.

It felt subversive to be fat and that was exciting too.

My relationship with the man I was in love with unraveled. I’m so happy to be away from him now and I finally accepted that I have love and joy for my fat body and eating and indulging in those things and having it be sexual and exciting instead of just something I played with in the context of bdsm.

I’m still really indifferent to other people’s fat and their eating habits. I have no desire to encourage others. But I definitely love everything about others encouraging me.

My weight still fluctuates a bit and will come off unwillingly when I’m especially active or when I get sick. I still really enjoy being active and get frustrated when I’m too sick to do so. (My illness is genetic has nothing to do with weight)

I definitely love the idea of men taking me out to dinner and feeding me and encouraging me to eat as much as possible and then to eat even more just to make them happy. Dressing me in ways that show off my fat body for their pleasure especially. And also especially love when a man plays with and enjoys my fat body.

So yep. Total latecomer. But

I remember when I was 3 years old, I saw a very fat aunt of my mother's in a flowered dress and all I wanted to do was hug her. I remember feeling that way for many years growing up. I loved looking at fat people. In my teens I realized it was more than just wanting to hug them. I realized I was aroused by fat and it didn't matter if it was a male or female or trans person. I just loved fat people. The bigger, the better and the more sloppy, the more cellulite, the more flabby, the more I love it. My whole life, I've been a fat fetishist and chubby chaser