Extreme obesity

Whoah. So you've really gone all the way to the farthest extent of this kink then?
How old were these three feedees when you started (and ended) your relationships with them? They must have given up so much to chase their dream, I was wondering how long it took them to decide that immobility was important enough to their happiness to make those sacrifices worth it?

Also, were all three men? Would you feel the same way if your next feedee was a woman - would you still want to have a sexual relationship with them?

You seem to have an astonishing capacity to care for people mixed with your deathfeedist desires, and there seems to be a strong streak of abdl 'mommy' in you as well. Is encouraging your feedees to behave like babies also something you get off to?

In my experience, the best way to go is keep them fed and happy. Let them dictate what they want. Never say no to anything, even funnel feeding.

With proper care, I have had an immobile feedee comfortable happy and eating for about 4 years on average before health problems catch up. Always let the feedee dictate what he wants. That’s the best way.

Yes I enjoy my feedees being helpless. I like putting them in diapers and freeing them from the need to reach a toilet. I enjoy bottle feeding them weight gain shake and encouraging them to have 3rds or 4ths at meal time.

The hardest thing to go through was realizing that my feedee wanted me to keep going even though we both knew it was going to kill him soon. He begged me to feed him so I did. I was there when his heart stopped.

What is it about you NYC ladies and funnel feeding? I've been funnel fed by 3 women from NYC over the last 15 years and it's the only state I've had that experience with.

Not that I'm complaining of course...I love it and am addicted now. Thanks NYC and thank you for sharing Tigerlily33

Well at least he had you with him at the end. Dying alone would be worse, especially after a relationship based on such extreme intimacy (with you effectively combining the roles of lover and mother). I can't imagine how you must have felt - genuinely kind of confused. Overwhelming sadness and grief I suppose - though perhaps it was complicated by other, lesser feelings? Guilt, or relief or satisfaction even? Have you decided how you feel about it now you've had some time alone? It's such an unusual emotional situation I just don't know what to think. I hope this doesn't seem insensitive.

How would you feel if you could see that this was going to happen again - as I presume it will do if you seek another man (or woman)?

It will happen again. I have feedees eagerly wanting to get with me and become immobile blobs of bed bound fat. That’s fine if they want that, they will get it. I know how to take care of men and women who can’t move at all. Someone asked me if I love these men or women who choose to destroy themselves? Honestly, no. It’s a job to me. I enjoy it certainly, but it’s a job. If that upsets some, I don’t care.

If you want it, do it. Life is too short for regrets.

As long as it's what they really, REALLY want I can't see how anyone can say that what you're doing is morally wrong. People have the right to live their lives however they wish as long as they don't infringe on the rights of others. Like you said, life is too short not to live it the way you want, no matter how strange or disturbing other people may find it.

When you find your next feedee (well when you decide who it will be out of however many people are asking you) do they basically hand over their finances to you so you can get everything they need? Do they formally hire you in any way? With your last guy it kind of sounded like you were casually dating at the start, getting coffee together etc. Rather than it just being a job from the start. Have I got that right? And of course you did like to have sex with him too, so it was a job with benefits at least lol. Was it a similar dynamic with the men/women who came before him?

Also presumably the medicaid nurses you hired to help care for him must have assumed you were in some sort of relationship with your feedee? I mean you lived together and you said they had to assist you when you had sex with him (I presume you meant hold some of his flab back so you could access his penis)?

While I understand that it is a job for you, it does also seem like it is a major part of your emotional life too, what you deeply need and desire Wouldn't you be sad if you never got to feed someone, bathe them, diaper them, be needed that much by them, ever again?

PS Would you prefer I message you all these interminable questions privately in future?

Where I work for a day job, I care for people everyday. Bathing, feeding, diapering is common place. At work I have to follow dining plans to keep my job.

I carefully screen those who ask me to be my next live in feedee. Yes, past feedees turned over finances to allow me to care for them properly. That’s why my spare bedroom has a built in Hoyer lift I see no reason to remove.

It’s always my feedees choice. If they put the plate down and walked away, I would let them. So far none have done that and their bedroom is always unlocked