Nico777893:
... I still really struggle with the reality of what turns me on lol. I'm not into extreme obesity or health problems like much of this thread. In contrast, I have been very fit my whole life, athlete, personal trainer, the whole nine yards.
I don't like gore, vore, pain, or death, at all...
But I do like the feeling of absolute control and submission that comes with fattening someone up... Of breaking their will... Maybe they even resist, at first? I love the evil dynamics of the witch & Gretel (sorry fellas, I'm very straight).
I think the dark/death theme just adds an extra edge to the power dynamics. The act of submitting your body even to the possibility of the darkest of motives. I know it's some sort of psychological power kink ofc.
And yet I can't seem to fully accept this within myself, let alone hope to meet someone in real life who shares such taboo secrets behind an otherwise very "normal" social and work life.
You can be aroused by all of that, even want it in a sense, and not act on it. It’s not reflective of your moral character to be into this stuff. I don’t know how to square the circle of being into very dark stuff like we are, but trying to suppress it within yourself won’t do anything but cause you pain. I’m into death feedism, but I doubt I’ll ever do more than vaguely allude to it in dirty talk. I don’t think I’d actually even want to dabble with it in real life, were I to get the chance. Your kinks don’t define you, friend. I wish you equanimity as you make your peace with this part of yourself 🫂
