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When I was a kid, I used to stuff pillows up my pyjama tops and pretend they were a fat belly. I had a video of a cartoon called Will O' The Wisp, which was about a 'fat fairy' called Mavis Cruet. I think it might have had something to do with the contrast of body types, since I've always been as thin as a rake.

It was at a track meet when I was in Grade 6 back in the early 90s.

The facility had a snack bar and this girl from my school went a few times. After lunch, she went back to the snack bar and got some fries.

The two things that stand out for me is a teacher said to her, "If you keep eating at the snack bar, you won't be able to do your jumps".

That was fascinating. Like somebody could eat so much food that it would weigh them down so they couldn't do the high jump.

But what woke me up to my fetish was after the fries and the comment from the teacher, she went back to the snack bar and got an ice cream bar. WHOA!

She was a couple years younger than me so we weren't in the same school again until I was in grade 11. She had gotten a bit chubby by then. She was out of my league, but I wish I could have asked her out. Fast forward to when I joined FB and I found her there. She was massive.

When the first time was is hard to say.
I think it was triggered very early, perhaps by cartoons and my imagination.
I had access to my own computer at an early age and also knew how to use it, or how to use the search engine, so i searched for fat women on the internet and found Kelligrl.
That resulted in the first place from a fun website where there was the "I Want you fat way?" video.
Interesting that I have saved the pictures and, it was still in an age in which I have not ejaculated, but found it interesting and kind of erotic.
My brother has found the pictures a short time later and that had given me the damper that I had not looked further.
I guess i was about 11 maybe 12 years old.
A short time later i had my experience which has influenced me in this matter until today.

As a child and teenager, I spent every summer day at the lake or in the swimming pool whenever it was possible.
If i think about it correctly then i should have been 13 years old.
At that time i actually already knew that i was attracted to big and fat women, but tried to suppress this fact.
Anyway, one hot summer day after school i went to the pool with friends.
There were big meadow areas and we had looked for the furthest corner, so we had to walk a bit to get to the pool.
There i saw a SSBBW about 30-40 years old sitting on her blanket in a bathing suit, she was apparently alone with her little son.
I would estimate her at maybe mid 400. She had a wide, huge ass with massive legs.
A huge belly, pillow-like arms and many rolls of fat on her back.
At least i could get a pretty good view of her huge body because of the tight swimsuit.
Definitely one of the biggest women i've seen in public so far, at least where I could get a good look at the figure.
In public you rarely see such big women who don't try to retouch their body with clothes.

To see her later in the water, while i dived past with diving goggles was the greatest thing.
I wished at that moment to be there alone, so that i could watch her permanently.
Of course, today I would respect the privacy and maybe risk a look. If the situation arises of course also address, in a respectful, honest way.
But if I remember back, I would have preferred to spend the day incognito around her. To watch every step that she make.

But even so, I have seen her often enough that my pupil brain was completely overwhelmed with this experience.
I also remember seeing her get up and move around.
It really was a magnificent sight and i'm sure it left a strong impression on me, in any case i was aware that i liked what i saw.
And when I was able to process it, I knew the woman from the swimming pool was like Kelligrl.
Probably that is the really start.
It still took a long time until i really became aware and can give a f***about it.
But the older you get, the more indifferent the opinion of others becomes.

I'm not totally sure where this came from, but when I was growing up my family were very health conscious and if I think about it now, kinda fat phobic. I had a very restricted diet and was only allowed to get things like fast food on special occasions like my birthday. When I put on a few pounds at college I started having feelings, but also kinda rebelled against what had happened in the past.

I was raised an overweight child/teen due to abuse/parents giving me awful medicines I didn't need that caused painful unhealthy weight gain. I was tormented and bullied so badly for being overweight, to the point where I took drastic measures to make myself thin.

Consequently at the same time I always had a love for bigger fatter women. I kept it a secret.

Cartoons in which a character got fat or inflated was enticing to me at an early age, and as a teen I definitely stumbled across fat fetish art and was cringey about it. I accidentally almost let my friend circle overlap with my kink browsing and I was constantly paranoid I'd be harassed for my kinks. So tldr I had DEEP DEEP SHAME for having a weight gain fetish... up until my early adulthood.

Age 20 + I felt less shame. Started participating in the kinks myself into my twenties. Now here I am, 160 lbs of beefy butter ball.

I achieved abs and a fit body in an unhealthy way. I gave it all up because I think my pot belly is cute. Ironically now that I'm chubby I am a better athlete, so coming to terms with this kink has been a good thing for me.

I was a heavy child and teen. I was teased often but when I was 13 I got teased heavily. My cheeks were so big and I was bulging out of my gym outfit. The popular girls teased me and said I had hammy hamster cheeks and how hammy I was everywhere. I blushed but it aroused me. The first time I came was after school thinking about them teasing me.

You’ve come through so much and here you are — not merely surviving but thriving.

Oh, and chubby looks good on you. Those who bullied you have not stopped you, and the parents who mistreated you, you’ve outlasted them.

You are free now of all that. Good for you.

The stories here are just so filled with delight and wonder.

I used to do this with my sister and cousins too! I think this was one of my awakenings. I also loved when cartoon characters would get fat. I remember wanting to be fat just like them.

I don't remember when it started but it did develope more over time.
I remember that I always liked when a girl had a round chubby face. Chubby cheeks have always been so cute.
It really picked up when I saw weight gain in tv shows and movies and of course when I started drawing it.