Extreme obesity

I have never had a set weight goal, I’ve been so so indecisive about it. Back in 2020 I definitely was more in tune with my weight and pushing towards immobility. Sometimes I still think about what it would be like if I DID follow through with it. Just a thought.

So I like the idea of being between 350-400. However I also cannot control my eating so if I had a feeder constantly bringing me food I don't think I could stop eating no matter how big I got. Pretty big fantasy of mine, not wanting to gain anymore and my feeder just taunting me "if you don't want to get bigger than don't eat the food" knowing I can't not eat whatever she puts in front of me