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I have been here for a while and have posted pictures, but I'm just now trying to introduce myself. I apologize for starting off like this.

I've had a fetish for, and an obsession with gaining weight most of my life, and derive sexual gratification from becoming fatter. No one in my life knows, and when I start gaining, I know that people are judging, or pitying me for letting myself go, and try to cover it up. In a way I try to "cover my shame". I've had to deal with this for so long, being ridiculed for being chubby as a kid, and hearing so many terrible things about fat people. Even though I love gaining and it makes me feel fulfilled, I have become ashamed of being the walking taboo that I am, and I think that if I tell anyone who doesn't share my fetish about this, that they will surely just judge me, and stop talking to me, because every time they see me, they will only see the fetish. I just don't know how many people out there have the same fetish, or at least in the way that I deal with it, and I feel like an abomination. I just want to know where I stand on this site. Am I alone?

Thank you all so much. I really needed to read this. I have never told anyone this before, and I was worried to say it, even on FF. I have been at the lowest points in my life over the past couple of years, and it makes me feel so much better just to know I'm not alone <3

If anyone is angel and devil about fat love it's me. On here I'm open with it and comfortable sharing thoughts on it, such as this post. But in real life I still feel the pressure of fat shaming. My dad is the worst one for it, he's always going on about some fat chick he's come across in his daily travels and he's none too kind with words spoken about her. Even his comments to me are not too nice, yeah I'm no rail thin porn model like in his vids he downloads but I don't need to hear him tell me that.

I've noticed stretch marks on my belly lately and it freaks me out, I know what it means, I'm getting fat and I'm not happy with it on me. On the other hand my boyfriend always says he likes me as is but hates the fat on him so it's a total double standard coming from him. So I'm always at odds with myself over fat, I like it on men and respect it on women but hate it on myself.

Whether you are an FA, or a gainer, it is very hard to have those preferences if you are into peer pressure. You just have to say, I'm fat, or I like fat partners and let people know.

I think everyone on this website experiences this at some point in their lives. People with other fetishes/preferences can keep them in their bedroom, but we cannot hide that we are big or have a big partner. You just need to get enough confidence to go for it and if you get annoying questions, you can always try to shrug them off. You don't need to tell people why you are gaining weight, you can say something like "I have been enjoying the good life". Or for FAs, you don't need to explain that you like big bellies or so, but say something like you don't like this stereotype of skinny women in the media, you like your woman to be a bit softer.