I can remember being in 5th grade seeing the fat kids and talking to them about how they got as big as they did meanwhile secretly feeling jealous in my head that their parents would allow them to be very fat when my parents would never allow me to eat unhealthily barely ever as my parents were extremely concerned about staying fit themselves and my guess is that they thought they could force the same discipline and habits on me by controlling my eating habits and forcing exercise since a young age. Too bad for them, now that I'm an adult and can do as I please, I have been for some time and will continue to eat whatever I want whenever I want without even a single thought as to how unhealthy whatever fattening food item im eating is or how much calories it has and how much weight Ill gain from eating it because of it being calorie loaded junk food. I also can remember being about 5 years old walking in the grocery store with my parents and seeing a fat couple and realizing that was how I wanted my body to look like and I realized I was unhappy being skinny as I started realizing more and more after that that I would feel happier and more like myself being a fat person. I also remember when I was on 6th grade and in the beginning of discovering my sexuality, my parents would see me watching news reports on obesity often and asked me if I wanted to be fat when I got older and I told them yes and they were completely confused and worried about my health because they just didnt understand that I could want to be fat as they have stayed fit and active throughout adulthood. The concept that someone may actually be okay with being fat even though fat people are judged and have to deal with health issues, and they were completely unable to comprehend and blown away that I told them I wanted to be fat and didnt care about my healyh or the way my body looks.
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