Gaining

How did you react when you realised it all?

I sometimes am amazed by people who gain "accidentally". I binge and gorge myself to put on five pounds. Then I lose over just a couple of days since I don't maintain that level of overeating. I mean really!

When I was around 19 I put on around 50 to 60 pounds in the span of 6 to eight months. I broke my foot and had to have major surgey. After that all I had to eat was pizza and poutine since I couldn't cook or make food for myself. And here I am now 200 pounds of pure fat. I was around 115 to 120.

I haven’t weighed myself in years but I know I’ve put on weight. Today I took a measuring tape and measured my waist. I was shocked to see it was 44 inches, and my hips were 48 inches. I’m only 5’5” so those are huge measurements. I always knew I was overweight, but now I worry that I’m obese. I have no will to be to fat nor enjoyment so now I’m going to try to lose weight.