Fat experiences

Not sure if this is the right place for this, but here goes.

I am a Christian. I believe in Jesus Christ, that he died for our sins & that the Bible is the written word of God. That of course comes with a lot of conflict between my spiritual needs & my fleshly desires. I have always felt alone in regards to being someone with this “weird attraction” to larger ladies whilst also having faith in God. I often feel like I’m the only Christian fat admirer in the world. Things have only gotten more turbulent as I grow older & more isolated due to the pandemic. Does anyone else have this conflict? Christian or not, does anyone else struggle with faith & fetish?

I’m not surprised to see this sort of comment, no offense, but if I didn’t have my faith I’d have taken my own life years ago…

I think that anyone who has ever been involved in Christianity (or most any other mainstream sect of an organized religion) has at some point struggled with resisting the temptations of carnal pleasures in favor of what they might perceive to be a life of righteousness and spirituality. I can remember being a teenager, sitting in church with my family, trying to listen to the pastor's sermon - all the while my mind drifting off and getting lost in visions beautiful curvy women and all the things I'd like to have done with them. I'd shake my head and snap out of it, saying to myself, "God, what is wrong with me? Why am I having these sexual thoughts when I am supposed to be having this 'holy experience' with my family and fellow parishioners?"

Well the answer to that questions is simple: I was a teenager. What teenage boy doesn't think about his Johnson 24/7? Not too many, certainly not in this hyper-sexualized society in which we live.

I'm not going to engage you in a discussion of your personal theology or faith, as clearly you have your own views and you know where you stand. We all travel our own path in this world, and I believe that our "religion" in the end is just our relationship with our God, our maker, our selves, the universe - however you want to look at it. If you are a man of faith as you say, then you must believe that God put you where you are and made you the man you are for a reason.

Is there a reason why God would want you to engage in feeding someone? Is there a reason God would want you to prefer the look and feeling of a larger, fatter body, either on yourself or a partner? Does your presence here on Fantasy Feeder somehow fulfill part of God's plan for you? I don't think there is a right or wrong answer to any of these questions; whatever you feel in your heart is what is meant for you.

It's all about finding the right balance in life, isn't it? Our fetishes aren't a big deal until they are; if anyone part of who we are starts taking over and keeping us from feeling like a whole and fulfilled person, well that's a problem.

One thing I think is absolutely and ironically important to note: I've known a good number of Christians who were very overweight and chronic overeaters. It may seem like a broad and unfair generalization, but from my experience a lot of these fat Christians were overeating as a means of stuffing-down or sedating some desire within themselves that they feel goes against God's will or is in someway sinful. I've seen it a hundred times: a parishioner getting bigger and fatter, until they finally either come out of the closet as gay, or they divorce an abusive spouse they were afraid to leave, or somehow own up to and confront some inner-conflict they've been having.

I think a lot us here might fall into that category as well - but I digress.

We all walk our own path in life, and we all have to find a balance in life that works for us. What works for us, will work for God - I can almost guarantee it. Wherever your path leads you, @kaede45, I hope it brings you peace.

Jesus was a feeder. So am I.

We got stuff in common.

That's all I need to know.

I left the Church of Christ two years ago because I couldn't take the judging anymore. Judging because I shot and wrote pornography when I was younger, judging because I listened to gangsta rap, judging because I liked big girls, and on and on. Everyone struggles with impurity in the church but what we do goes beyond struggling.

But, as you said, without faith you wouldn't be alive today. Me? I realized a Christian wife was never going to indulge in fat fantasies no matter how innocent they are. Every girl in my church was either thin or trying to be thinner. That's just the way it is.

I also am a Christian, and while there is a lot of ways that people can feedism or fat appreciation as a practice of lust, it can be practiced without being sinful.
I Corinthians 6:12, 13- All things are lawful unto me, but all things are not expedient; all things are lawful for me, but I will not be brought under the power of any. Meats for the belly, and the belly for meats; but God shall destroy both it and them. Now the body is not for fornication, but for the Lord; and the Lord for the body.
God doesn’t hate fat. He likes it.
You can be into this, but you can’t let it control you or keep you from loving God, loving your neighbor, or loving yourself.
I am encouraged by the people that come into appreciating getting fat as a form of healing.
Song of Solomon 7:2 – Thy navel is like a round goblet; which wanteth not liquor; thy belly is like a heap of wheat set about with lilies.
Isaiah 55:2 – Wherefore do you spend money for things that which are not bread? And your labor for that which satisfieth not? Hearken unto me and eat that which is good, and let your soul delight itself in fatness.

Enjoy.

Thank you for sharing this. I'm also a Christian, and struggled for many years about how to reconcile my faith with my fetish and lifestyle choice to gain weight. I recently came to a conclusion that feederism and faith don't have to clash. I've been fat literally all my life; if God didn't intend for me to be fat, then why make me this way? I believe, rather, that God would have us be at peace with the way we were created, and even to delight in it, provided that doesn't come before our love for Christ, conflict with our moral consciences, or cause harm to someone else.