It was a fantasy for a while for me too, but the thing that kept me off of it was money and the judgement I’d get. As I’ve gotten older, more people in general are fatter/I don’t care ans much about being judged and the money thing is really the only thing that holds me back. What’s left now is a cycle of “maintaining” and being really into noticing how I’ve gotten fatter that and that usually motivates me into a couple days of stuffing.

Been going through this myself as well since the weight has been starting to come on easier now. I think the really fun part is when you decide you can throw away the clothes that are too small because you won’t be that small again. I feel like clothes shopping is a good frame of reference of progress compared to normal people as well.

I know it’s been mentioned on here they yo-yo effect, when you lose a little bit of weight, and then gain it back very fast, what are some results that y’all have seen? I just had my first experience with dropping about 12 lbs over the course of 2 months, and then when I switched back to gainer mode, I was up 7 lbs in one week. This was kind of a shock to me.

It was probably when my belly started to shift from the nice ball shape to something that progressively got fatter the lower you go, and my love handles got a bit bigger. It was also when I went to the clothing store and found that I was picking from the largest sizes they had. I also noticed that people I previously thought were very fat didn’t seem that large to me anymore. Ie, thinking someone’s not that fat, only 250 lbs.

My story is a bit different, I was honestly terrified of getting fat in middle school, it was early high school that I found that there was something inviting/mesmerizing about soft, jiggly fat. After I started to fixate on that, there was no going back.

I started trying with significant effort around 21 but it wasn’t until 22 that I started gaining about 30lbs, and then hit a plateau until I was 26, when I gained another 30 lbs.

For me, I had a couple days back to back where I’d eat something at every restaurant I passed on the way home from work, ending the day with a cake mix/ice cream/heavy cream shake. Blended and funneled out of a mixer. That was euphoric.

I would utilize a funnel with a valve for the first times, or one with a hole small enough to be covered with your tongue. Other thing is you will be drinking way faster than normal, so don’t push past discomfort until you are more comfortable with the process. In my experience, it was the fastest I ever put on weight, as long as I used it in the “snack” time slots. If I did it around meals I found I ate less of my meals. So it could also be a “dessert”. My favorite combination was always ice cream mixed with heavy cream and vanilla cake mix. The ice cream is much easier on the stomach, so start with higher ratios of that, and increase the heavy cream / cake mix as you get more comfortable with it.

The weight I gained from cream stuck, but it definitely never went on as fast as the cream put it on. The stretch marks I have were 100% from my stint with heavy cream, ice cream, and cake mix shakes I used to make myself. Sometimes I wish I could go back to that…..

For me it’s the thrill of all the closet eating I do. Noticing things like my capacity going up, not feeling full for more than half an hour after stuffing myself to the limit at a buffet, feeling tired after simple things I shouldn’t be. Heck even holding myself up at an angle gets exhausting quickly. And then the best part, finding new parts of me that jiggle uncontrollably. It’s like rediscovering a new me every 20 lbs.