i am!

babe you know you'll always have a special place in my heart

i'm 22 years old and looking for a big and tall (6 foot and above) guy to talk to and get to know. i love giving belly rubs and cooking and i've been told i'm pretty good at both! aside from indulging in this fetish, i'd also like someone who i can actually have a real intimate connection with. just a little about myself, i'm a senior in college in pennsylavnia (location on here is wrong) and my major is anthropology with a minor in theatre. i'm very into outdoor activities like camping, hiking, rock climbing, etc. i also love horse-back riding and used to do it competitively; in my mind, no better feeling than on the back of a running horse. on that note, i'm a huge animal lover. i'm very sociable and outgoing and love going out with friends to get a few drinks at the bar, especially if there's live music or a band playing. music is my first love and i literally enjoy something from every genre, but my favorites would have to be classic, alternative, and punk rock as well as now some irish folk and rock music as i just spent 8 months studying abroad in dublin, ireland. i'm not too much of a girly girl as i enjoy watching sports like football and hockey and going to games (tailgating too of course!) i'm also not really into chick flick or any kind of girly reality TV shows. i tend to watching things like south park, family guy, the simpsons, etc. and other sitcoms but also some more nerdy stuff on the history and discovery channel. i also love movies of all kinds and really like good comedies, as you can probably tell by my TV preferences, haha, and will always enjoy staying in with a good movie when not going out with friends. i'd like someone who i can ideally do all these things with. someone who's fun, sociable (enjoys going out for a few drinks and what not) funny and with a good sense of humor (love a guy i can laugh with), laid back, confidant without being vain, good-hearted, and affectionate. basically, i want someone who can be my feedee/BHM, my pillow, and my best friend. if you think you fit the bill, shoot me a message and let me know you're responding to this!

so i'm an fa and feeder and my boyfriend is pretty big, about 280 lbs. but recently, he's been petty intent on losing weight, and he is at lightning speed! i told him i like him big, but he says he'd rather be healthier and lose more weight. i didn't meet him on here so he doesn't know the real depth of my fetish but i really don't want him to get skinny! what should i do?!

thanks for all the support everyone. i've actually just recently met someone who i'm now in a healthy relationship with and i'm thrilled to say that things are going wonderfully. i'm very happy

i have a bluish-green tribal wolf on my left shoulder blade and a black om symbol on my right ankle. my next one is going to be an intertwined celtic knot and ocean symbol on my right hip

i don't even know why i'm posting this other than the fact that i kinda just want to get it out and figured i might as well do it in a community where i feel safe. also, i just received bad news regarding my health and knowing now that i may not have the same length and quality of life as everyone else, i'm starting to think about the bigger questions of life. it doesn't refer just to the men on this site, although they are part of it in my experience, but all men in general. basically, i'm pretty much at a point where i've all but given up on men. it seems no matter what i do or don't do, i'm never enough for anyone. all any guy seems to want from me these days is either just my body or my friendship, especially the former. sure it's nice being told that i'm pretty or sexy or whatever, but god i'm so tired of just being a hole for someone's dick. i'm so tired of being led on to think someone actually likes me, like all of me, for who i am, only to get me into bed with them and the next morning, i'm nothing. i'm equally tired of being led on to the point where i finally let my guard down and allow myself to be happy and trusting and think to myself "ok, it's for real this time. i really like him and he really likes me and for once, things are finally going to be ok" only to just then be given another bullshit excuse like "i'm not ready for a relationship" or "i'm just too busy for anything serious right now" or "i think we'd be better off as friends." it's basically like being told "i'm sorry, but you're just not quite good enough. sure you're great to have sex with and/or to talk to, but you're not worth any serious time or effort." this has been my love life, or lack there of, for so long now and it never gets any easier. it's been so long since i've had any kind of requited love that i don't even remember what it feels like. i don't remember what it's like to be enough for someone, to be more than enough, to have someone lie next to me and hold me and tell me how happy they are to have me, all of me. i don't want another one night stand or sex buddy or friend. i want someone who wants me, all of me; not just my body and not just my friendship. i want to know that i matter to someone, that i'm someone's everything and that they're mine too. but it seems that no man, or at least no man i come in contact with and desire, ever wants that of me. i'm starting to think that maybe no man ever will. maybe i'm just not enough for anyone. maybe i'm just not meant to be loved. that's a heartbreaking thought, so much so that i'm in tears as i write this, but every new time my heart gets broken, it seems even more true. sometimes when i see couples walking down the street hand in hand, smiling, laughing, kissing, i pretend i have someone walking next to me too and i'm just as happy as them. sometimes when i'm lying in bed awake at night, i pretend there's someone lying next to me, with their arms around me and it helps me get to sleep on those many sleepless nights. when i'm alone, as i often am aside from my friends, i dream of someone who will finally help mend my broken heart, who will make me finally feel safe, happy, and loved again, who will make me believe that love is real, and that it is within my grasp, who will make me forget that i ever thought otherwise. as i grow older though, and wiser per say, this dream becomes more of just that, just a dream, with less and less hope each day. the typical joke and stereotype is that men never want a relationship and women always do. i don't know about all women, but the part about the men seems to be true. for some reason, they never want to give any woman all of themselves or to take all of that same woman. for them, it's like an end all or something that they act like inhibits their masculinity, freedom, and happiness. is it really so much to ask? to allow yourself to, instead of just being content with being casual with multiple people, attempt at achieving true happiness by being more serious with just one person? like i said, i'd like to believe that's not true, but the more men i meet and who break my heart, the more the theory proves itself. i'm at a point now where i'm in a state of perpetual doubt and heartbreak and i don't even remember what it's like to be happy or excited about anything anymore. i'd give anything in the world to have all the love i have to give returned.

right here!

not fat, but tatted! getting my next one in a few days as my christmas present to me, haha

i adore big guys, that's why i'm here! i think a big, round belly on a guy is extremely masculine looking plus so much better for cuddling! absolutely love giving belly rubs!