Looks like I might be going on some similar meds as well too plus stuff for insomnia.

Its been a darker fantasy of mine to lose control over my weight to medication after seeing a friend balloon up four dress sizes and now it may happen to me has me slightly nervous..

Not that I would say no to an extra 30 or 50lbs from an insatiable appetite!

I gain quite fast when I get going, usually around 10 lbs a month. I like the feeling of losing control and going from skinny like where I’m at now to chunky then chubby in a short space of time feels great, last time I managed to go from 115 to 145 over the Christmas season and on my lithe frame that 30 extra pounds of fat really showed fast!

The feeling of outgrowing clothes and becoming more of a glutton feels great as my abs turn to blubber and my belly starts to strain against my jeans, only problem I have is keeping on which is a mental block really as I’d love to turn that extra 30 to 50 and more.

I guess I am a yoyo gainer. At the start of the year I was a little soft but toned up just from working an active job, my skinny jeans are a perfect fit for a slim me, but my shirts are usually oversized as I like them baggy.

Then I went to work overseas and started eating out as much as possible and grabbing cheap but amazing street food on the go.

At first I noticed my jeans getting a little tighter but fortunately they stretched a little. When I went to get new ones I had to size up which I of course blamed on the brand and kidded myself that it was just a number.

I really had to acknowledge I was gaining weight again when I could feel my lovehandles brushing against my tees and feel my belly jiggle a little when I was sucking in.

Then recently I decided to squeeze into the older jeans.. instant belly bulge, squishy love handles and a straining button!

Months of not paying attention to my eating and 11 extra inches of blubber around my belly and I admitted to myself that once again I was fattening up and I like it.

Now its past Christmas my jeans are straining more, my belly is wobbling, bulging over my waistband and I haven't even been stuffing like I used to yet!

In Europe, cheap and fattening street food, at more or less 2 euros a go it is easy to have have 2 kebabs or wraps with fries on top of what I'd usually eat, then have big carb heavy dinners in the evenings, funny thing is it was 'holiday weight' even as an expat until I came home for the first time in months and tried to cram myself into older clothes :/

I'm not that big and wasn't a fan before but while I don't regard myself as having moobs, I do like how my whole torso is just fattening up along with my belly to remind me of how I'm letting myself go. Pecs are gone, abs have been replaced by a bulging belly that is slowly growing, love it!

I've been using a hairband looped around the button since Christmas :s ! My actually 6 month pregnant friend isnt even doing this haha

I like to start with fairly tight jeans so my belly is already hanging over and a button up shirt, all of my shirts are tight as they were skinny fit and I havent bought any new ones in a year so no avoiding that haha! Havent managed a shirt button pop yet as they just ride up or stretch, maybe i need to stuff more and faster..

When NYE is coming up and I've literally outgrown my one ironically shitty party shirt, reaching up exposes my relatively little gut.

... I suppose I could where it and swear to go on a diet?

Jeans at least a size or two too small but cover my gut with a loose t shirt that gives me room for more, I like to have my waist bands digging in to remind me of what a glutton I am becoming!

You have no obligation to explain anything to them, anytime I see my family and I'm bigger than the last time I kinda shrug it off or say I'm busy so grab takeout or fast food a lot, sometimes just say I'm enjoying my food a bit too much etc! Most of my family are fat anyway so I guess they find it amusing to see their once skinny son coming back with a fat belly once a year.

My friends from home on there other hand all rip on each other, and weight gain part of that, we've known each other since we we're teens and now half of us are getting bigger, me on purpose (they don't know the complete truth I just say I like food and don't mind gaining weight because of it) and a recovering anorexic who now has a muffin top and chows down on whole pizzas, neither of us are immune!