For me it’s very erotic. I’m gay and have liked fat men (read fantasized sex and masturbation material) for the longest time. I actually feel sexy being fat.

My moobs are starting to grow. I was a weightlifter and had a pretty defined and solid chest. Since I stopped working out I lost some muscle and gained a lot of fat. I gain muscle and fat fast, but lose slowly. I really like how my tits are getting larger and blubbery. They don’t really show as flabby and blubbery through a shirt but that’s one of my goals.

There, I said it … I put butter in my coffee along with heavy cream or light cream.

Yes, it happens to me too. When I’m depressed or stressed I lose my appetite. I may be genuinely very hungry, with my stomach rumbling and hunger pangs but I can’t eat. I just ride it out. It passed and I start eating again.

Recently when I decided I’m not going back; recently when I gave away my size 42 pants and jeans; when I decided I want to wear size 46-48 and hit at least 250-260 lbs (I’m about 5’6”); when I realized I want to become obese. Not immobile or unhealthy obese but definitely noticeably obese with soft blubbery fat. Giving away my pants was a definite point-of-no-return. And I’m pretty happy with the decision.

It was probably when I passed 210 (I’m about 5’6”) that I started growing moobs. They’re not big, and with a shirt you really can’t tell but my chest and underarms are getting fatter and jiggly. I hope they grow a lot more.

I haven’t been formally tested or diagnosed but all my life I’ve had the markers and behaviors of Level One Autism. I have two nephews who are also on the spectrum. Oddly, I can read body language but I often misread facial expressions and tone of voice.

I’m also bipolar 2, hypomanic depressive and have GAD, generalized anxiety disorder. I understand that autism and bipolar often go hand-in-hand and intertwine. What I thought was standalone OCPD (different from OCD) is probably my autism.

As a side note, something that irritates the shit out of me is when people minimize autism by saying “I must be autistic too” or “everyone is a little autistic”. No, they don’t know what it’s like being teased and mocked for being “weird” or little professor or walking encyclopedia.

Playing guitar and (a bit of) bass; weight lifting; reading and learning: science, history, mythology of different cultures; food and cooking, and of course eating. Lol

I don’t know if all fat gay men deliberately gain but at least on Grommr there are 10s of 1000s of gay men who are gainers, maintainers, encouragers, admirers, feeders, feedees and every permutation there of. I don’t know what explains this phenomenon but I’m a fat gay guy and love other fat guys. In fact, I’m finding myself upping my fat game, that is, I’m being drawn more and more to wanting to be fatter than I initially aimed for, and finding super chub guys very much more of a turn on than I used to.

I’m on bupropion, busprione and lamotrigine for bipolar depression; metoprolol for blood pressure; and oxycodone and pregabalin for chronic back pain (failed lumbar fusion surgery).

So yeah, they’re messing with my libido and ability to have an orgasm. And I’ll be straight up honest, this kink/fetish is very erotic and a big turn on for me. I love imagining myself getting and being fatter when I masturbate but achieving orgasm is difficult because of the meds. Even in the shower playing with my fat and my fantasies it can take forever to orgasm and ejaculate. I think this is very common.