Agreed! Sliding in and out of the booth is amazing. Feeling my belly press deeper into the table as I eat more is amazing. Sure, there are tables with moveable chairs at this restaurant. But where's the fun in that?

I've written about this before, but thought I would again because I love it.

I had breakfast at my favourite joint this morning. It's always tight sliding into the booths there, but I do it anyways.

I ate a gigantic breakfast. It's listed as 1700 calories on the menu, but that doesn't include the butter and syrup for the pancakes or the cream and sugar in the coffee. I figure it was closer to 2100 by the time all was said and done.

I've noticed that my gut isn't totally pushed up against the table. It has to make its way under to fit properly. My upper belly is what is squished in there.

It was tough getting out. That's the best part.

When I got home, I was walking around with my shirt off admiring my swollen midsection. I looked in the mirror and saw a dent/visible line on my upper belly where it had been pressed up against the table. I've never had that happen before.

I think I'm getting fat(ter).

I went to buy some new shirts today. While trying them on in the change room, I saw myself in the mirror - I look massive.

My reflection doesn't look like that at home, but for whatever reason it does in this change room.

As a side note, the XXXL shirts fit over my gut, but the sleeves are really long. Some of the unfortunate tradeoffs from being a short, fat guy.

And boy has it come back! I very much am eating how I feel. Always wondering what's next. What else can I have? I love it!

Completely agree. I got a Deluxe Box today. When I finished, I went to the coffee place in the same food court and got a brownie and a mocha latte. It was a good change of tastes. And by the end, I was feeling pretty stuffed.

So last week I was saying that I've noticed since eating better, walking and losing a bit of weight that I had a layer of softer subcutaneous fat I didn't know I had. I loved it.

Well, fast forward a few days and I'm completely off the rails. I am back into gaining mode. Eating crap. Lots of crap. I have eaten more than 4000 calories each of the last two days and well on my way to a third in a row.

It's exhilarating. Yet less than a week ago it was the furthest thing on my mind.

I get the impression that I'm going to surpass my highest weight ever and it isn't going to be too long before that happens. EEK!

www.deviantart.com/kallietellwrites/art/Feedee-Hypnosis-for-Rapid-Weight-Gain-1202483962

It's audio only, but it's great.

I am aware of the potential issues with yoyo dieting. I have also seen conflicting reports. Regardless, it's what I've done for years. Why? I don't know. Sometimes I've lost because I didn't feel good. Sometimes I've lost because I wanted to. But every time I've wound up fat again.

I'm not intentionally losing now. I decided I wanted to eat better. If I lose, cool. If I don't, also cool.

Oddly enough, it wasn't too long ago that I was musing about gaining to 300lbs. What stopped me? Who knows. Will I get there? Never say never. I'm about 260 right now and for the first time, appear squishier.

I have been eating better, but the more I think about it, the more I want to keep gaining. I don't think I'm there completely, but it's on my mind. My hope is to take it easy and see what happens. I am trying to avoid fast foods. I think this is a big factor as to why I've lost visceral fat.

I'm 46 years old. I've been a member of this community (here and elsewhere) one way or another since the late 90's. I've been big, I've been small and everywhere in between. A little more than two years ago I was in the best shape of my life. 194lbs, eating well and exercising. Then I decided to take a break and have some of the foods I had been avoiding. Some turned into some more then a lot more. I gained 72lbs in 9 months. Since then I lost some and then regained it and more to my highest ever weight of 275lbs. A few months ago I decided to eat a bit better and get some more walking in. Why? I'm not sure. Just felt like it I guess. Not even necessarily looking to lose weight. I have been a yo-yo dieter my whole adult life. My name here was to say I didn't want to yo-yo anymore. Yet, I did exactly that. Granted I didn't lose as much as I had in the past and rebounded as always. This time while losing some, I've discovered that I have more subcutaneous fat than before. In my years and years of gaining and losing and gaining and losing, I've never been this squishy. I did not expect it. The bigger issue, though, is that my mind is in "healthier" mode. Finding myself squishy has set off a cognitive dissonance I don't know how to deal with. I'm not against being squishier, it's what I've always wanted. I am just having trouble processing the fact that I've accidentally wound up here.

This could be the case. No idea where I'll go from here.