ahots:
IThat being said, I can ONLY orgasm thinking of very fat men, or being with a very fat man, and I've known fat has made me feel this way from a very young age. I think part of it is the social taboo and the contrast between me and a partner. There is literally nothing else that will turn me on other than a fat partner or a partner gaining weight. I've tried to change it, but after talking to a few psychiatrists, I've realized I need to love and accept it-fetishes don't go away! If it's legal and safe you just gotta incorporate it into your life with consent and balance.
BigFA:
I am exactly the same way. I can only get turned on thinking about fat women and/or getting fat myself. I have been fascinated with fat and weight gain ever since I was young and it wasn't until 25 years ago that I decided to let myself go, eat whatever I wanted and let my weight increase naturally. I found I loved growing fat and have to accept the fact that this is how I am wired. I enjoy living my life now as an FA, gainer and feedee and would not have it any other way.
Growing fatter is the most amazing feeling ever!