I went to feabie a week after it went online and it was like I went back to high school.
A lot of hate and jealousy and drama queens.
Guys who were soo arrogant it made me want to hurl.
I left not long after I joined.
Just a waste of time IMO.

Mostly lost weight. Hot summers I always lose 20 lbs or so.

Keep with it don't stop now.

Relationships are such a hassle sometimes so I totally get what you are saying.
If you do split take some time for yourself to sort things out don't jump right into another relationship.

Look at it this way do you see you being with him the rest of your life? Marriage in the future possibly ?
If you two break up on down the road for whatever reason then lose the weight.
Maybe that will relieve some of your anxiety over gaining.

I have one chubby GF and sometimes we take a Saturday and go to all the out of the way eateries in the area.
We come back stuffed every time.

It takes getting used to as far as the amount you drink.
If you cook and use milk to cook with just use the heavy cream instead.
If I do heavy cream I just drink it straight like a glass of milk. I will do that two or three times a day.
If I do that for a month or so everyday I will gain 5 or 10 lbs initially but the delay creeps up and with in the next month it ends up being 20 to 25 lbs

Eat a bowl of ice cream or drink heavy cream right before going to bed.
Let those fat calories do their magic while you do nothing but sleep.
Heavy cream always makes me gain it just has a delay effect and after a couple of months drinking some before bed and drinking boost plus a couple of times a day plus not really thinking about it but when the weight comes it will be noticeable.
I like to let it be a surprise and have people ask if I have gained weight.
I love when people notice an extra 30 - 40 lbs.
Good luck with your gain and I hope you gain as much as you want. We could use more super fatties around here.

It is by far the best way to gain if you keep it up.
Trying to eat a bunch of junk food just doesn't stick with you, heavy cream does.
I eat a lot because I love food and do deal with compulsive over eating disorder sometimes and eat for no reason other than it looks good and I want it.
I have added heavy cream right before bed and maybe do that for a month or so if I want to gain a few lbs.
The thing is its never just a few lbs because of the delay factor and it ends up being 20 lbs or more LOL

When I joined here originally I had already been trying to gain for a few years so I was probably 175 or so.
I think I gained around 80 lbs my first time on FF.
Was off a few years and got up to 250 lbs then lost a bunch so I could get ankle surgery.
Came back and started gaining again so yes FF will make you gain weight if thats what you want to do.
I think I joined here the first time in 2006.