Romy:
God, I didn't think my food addiction was that big.
I have a lot of anxiety and I can't wait to eat delicious things.
My husband is inflexible about my diet, but I already cheated, I have my nurse and my niece.
Yesterday I asked my nurse to let me have a hamburger and then a chocolate cake. Today I asked my niece to bring me fried chicken with potatoes and 5 bars of chocolate.
The problem is that my husband doesn't know this and if he finds out my nurse could have problems.
The truth is I'm starving and I have a serious anxiety problem. My nurse didn't do things voluntarily, I basically ordered her to do them.
I broke my diet but it was necessary to calm down a little.
Munchies:
The struggle is real. I don't think anyone here will think less of you for being weak. But overcoming food addictions is more than just willpower.
I can't force you to be honest with your husband about your struggles, but we both know you need to be honest with him.
Do you have any additional support besides your husband? Are you familiar with the resources in your area?
I don't know what country you are in, but there are helplines, support groups, one-on-one help from experts, etc. I'd look into it.
Romy:
I am undergoing treatment and they even gave me medication to control anxiety and I also resumed physical therapy. Eating secretly is difficult in bed, but when I can eat something delicious I do it.
My niece is going to bring me 2 triple hamburgers this afternoon.
I know I shouldn't eat those things but how do I resist the temptation? Anyway, I'm eating less than before and I'm going to lose some weight.
Okay, love. Just don't sabatoge yourself. And don't put your niece in a situation she doesn't need to be in - like thinking it's her fault when something happens or your husband inevitably finds out.
Because he will.
I am not shaming you for your addictions, but we both know your niece deserves better.