I am so thankful to each of you for your replies. People say the connections you make online aren't "real". I wholeheartedly disagree. I'm grateful for this community.

It's definitely been a challenging few days navigating a medical community as an Uber morbidly obese person. I am still in the hospital (and still a bit out of it). I've undergone angioplasty, atherectomy, and had a bowel obstruction cleared. No further procedures are scheduled, but I'm at high risk for complications because of my size. I'll spare the group all the details and tales of woe. I'll just say my bariatric scale at home was significantly off, and I was closer to 630 when I was brought in. I'll also say that nothing in the healthcare system is designed for a person my size, which has caused delays. I am too large for an enclosed MRI, the operating table in the room where they typically do cardiac surgery, and even for the design of one of the bariatric stretchers. The hospital has done a fantastic job accommodating, but it's been an ordeal.

That said, I'm doing well overall, and my fiance has been my rock. I'm also thankful for the positive energy I've gotten here. Appreciate each of you.

Friends--

I hope no one takes this as me mistaking this forum for the airport, where departures are announced publicly. I also hope no one feels this is my attempt to chastise, dissuade, or judge anyone else. Couldn't be further from opposite.

I was taken to the hospital this morning with chest pain and inability to breathe. I'm having surgery at some point either tonight or in the morning to remove some blockages. I also have liver dysfunction. I'm not a drinker; in my case, it's related to excess fat consumption..

I have zero regrets about my gaining journey, and I'm actually very happy with my physical appearance. However, I'm not 30 yet, and I'm getting married this year. I'm going to have to reassess because I actually want to see my wedding and make it beyond that to see what the rest of my life holds. I really hope that includes a way to continue to indulge this fetish in a mindful manner. And likely, as I have been for well over a decade, I will still be lurking. 😊💜

I'm genuinely only posting because I've talked with so many people here, and I've enjoyed our exchanges and time together, but I don't even know your first names! I wanted you to know I think you all are beautiful people, and I wish you the most enjoyment life has to offer. I'm not closing my account, but I'll probably be semi-silent for a while.

Hugs, positive energy, and warm wishes to each and everyone of you!

Yes and yes. I'm not exclusively attracted to fat men. My fiance is conventionally fit, and I'm wild about him. But I do love seeing big massive guts too.

I think my big turn-on is my own fat. Feeling myself gain and grow is a true thrill. I also love the feeling of being wildly stuffed and swollen, both because the sensation itself is nice and because being so gluttonous reminds me of how I grew to this size.

That's an awesome journey, Summer!

If it was possible to eat continuously while the belly infinitely grew bigger, I'd want to be propped up in a giant, comfortable bed and fed constantly. My gut would become an incomprehensibly large sphere of fat that filled the entire bed, touching my feet, and my only obligation would be packing in tens of thousands of calories.

I definitely describe myself as obese with folks who know I'm happy about it. When it's just us, like during belly play, my fiance calls me "Fatty" and I absolutely love it.

I can't remember what I ordered, but I do recall still being hungry after clearing my plates. When the server came to bring the check, I ordered more food instead. I'm sure there was talk!

Dear OP--

There's absolutely NO judgement here.

Is this experience causing you distress? Do you feel emotionally uncomfortable or unsafe? Do you have physical symptoms you are not enjoying?

If the answer to the above questions is yes, I encourage you to put your emotional welfare first. Talk to a therapist. Heal yourself. Heal your body.

Keep in mind... I'm a 600 pound woman. My lifestyle wouldn't be considered conventionally healthy by any definition, but it's also not up for adjudication by strangers, and I would never do that to you. That's not my point.

I only hope you will take the time to ask yourself if you are comfortable where you are, before offering up ways in which you are struggling so other people can get off. If the answer is that you are doing well and are ready to take that journey, support you 100%.

Maybe the boldest thing I ever did was, ironically, when I was about 360 pounds smaller than I am now. I was regaining lost weight aggressively and weighed around 230 with a big belly. I had a Bohemian-style halter top with a flowy skirt, and the top had a small elastic band around the bottom. If pulled up over the belly, it looked like a cropped poet's blouse. One day, in a particular bout of courage, I wore it like that to a Mexican restaurant and completely stuffed my face with a big bulging tummy on display. Admittedly, it was around 3 pm during the afternoon lull. I still felt brave, and somehow, even braver driving home with my pale beach ball belly on display

I'm marked safe from plastic garden furniture, because there is no way my 600 lb body would fit in one of those chairs anyway!

I also avoid anything with plastic or canvas slats as well as most folding chairs. I'm under the assumption they would give way immediately, and I would be on the ground. And well, it would take several people to help me get up...