QueenOfDenmark wrotewell i finde that i like it just as little when ppl. hate me for being fat and when ppl. love me for being fat... in both cases i dont feel like im being seen as a person. im just a mount of fat! ofcourse its a little gentler being liked and yet i get the feeling that i coulde just as well have bein a supersize blow up sex doll! and thats not a nice feeling!
This is so sad, yet it makes so much sense, I can so see this happening, it seems to be more common with guys too as we are prone to be controlled by our lower brain
The harsh truth is though, that yes, the way you feel, could be the way they see you and if that's how it is, it may be time to run far away. It's nice to have someone to share this with, but there is always more to life then a fetish.