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Yup I weighed 135-145 (depending on the cut) for wrestling throughout high school and college, then I was done! I just sorta started gained weight a year out from when I was done I had hit 200 then a few years later I was 248, then last year I managed to get to 300.. then in January 22 I sorta wanted to lose weight but I ended up finding body positivity and acceptance and found feedism and just sorta dived in, I’m now 350ish (depending on how much food I have in me)

Don’t get discouraged by lack of progress, some people gain instantly others not so much it’s all about how your body reacts to how good you're eating - and your experience trying to gain is just as valid as anyone else who’s gained a whole lot of weight you’re still a feedist.

I do not think you should deny yourself this if it’s what you want. I haven’t been around very long but from what I gather is that relationships can be difficult in this side of things. So no I don’t think you should deny yourself something that will make you happy do it for you, if it’s what you want. Should you though? It’s kinda really only up to you! For me, it just felt right and it’s what I wanted. Sorry if this isn’t the advice your looking for it’s what I got

its very uncomfortable putting your legs together while sitting when your big so what tends to happen is the furthest reaches of your belly kinda hang down by your crotch and the sides hang out in your thighs.

It’s a pretty recent phenomenon for me i would say after 300 maybe 320

I joined up and I knew I had something going on with my own weight but recently I’ve found a significant attraction to fat girls and honestly it’s making me feel things I haven’t in a very long time idk if it’s just exposure to more being here or what

Last time I was pinch tested I was 7% body fat with like 15 bmi lol I’d be very interested to see those numbers today since I’m like 200 pounds heavier

I don’t feel guilty for my body and how I choose to eat, but part of me feels like I would be mortified if someone close to me found out I had a fat fetish, in particular, me getting fat on purpose.. I mean I wouldn’t be bothered hypothetically having a fat girlfriend or whatever, or even me being 500 pounds… just that it’s on purpose for some reason urks me. Maybe it’s irrational idk.

But I think you have nothing to be guilty of and for. Don’t ever feel guilty for your body.

It’s easy to get fat doing any job… I mean it just depends how much you eat, try to stick to company/business/employer near a lot of places to eat out at. Also, depends how strict lunches/breaks are.