LoLbreadplease:
I am curious about a correlation between fat phobic influences and feedism. My mom loved to eat, was overweight, but warned her children not to be fat, while also associating eating with comfort. She neither wanted us to be thin or too fat, and sought some kind of control to achieve our desired weight. There was a stigma around being fat, obviously, but it was confusing. I think my dad may have been at least an enabler, if not an encourager, of her eating and weight. But she thought being fat was wrong from an aesthetic perspective, as her weight was "commented" on from a young age, and she was chubby growing up. From a young age, I was turned on at the thought of being fat, but I developed an eating disorder (likely to regain control, I see now), and I stayed fit my whole life until last year I realized my fetish for gaining weight. My daydreams came to life. I wonder how my upbringing influenced my fetish, although I suppose it's possible I was just wired to want to be fatter.
I grew up with a very similar story from this, though still different. Both of my parents were complete health nuts but in different ways. I would workout and lift weights with my dad, and he explained to me the importance of eating more calories than you burn to put on muscle. And then after you've put on the desired muscle you cut back and burn off any added fat you may have gained. When my mom heard about this she freaked out because she associates weight with bad, always. She she hated it when I gained weight even when it was healthy weight. So now I'm almost convinced back in high school when I started to gain weight I did in spite of her a little bit. Because once I started bulking and got past the point where body builders would've done a "cut" phase I just kept gaining and I realized I actually enjoyed the added weight, both the muscle and the fat.
