Fantasy Feeder

How to get bad skin?

Kitsune:
I tried looking for options on Reddit. Most responses says therapists would rather talk than write or text since it isn't deemed as professional. I wish us patients can write first that way we can get comfortable once we feel read to see eachother face to face.

I would only advice you to prepare before hand, meaning, dont wait for the session to think about your thoughts, do that in your free time & write down stuff! Then give that to the therapists! It will be very helpfull i think!

8 months

Enas

How to get bad skin?

Kitsune:
No it's been a while since I had found a therapist. For a while now I used to think therapists were physical only. In other words, I didn't think there were online-only therapists.

Welp, it took me a while to find out such a thing exists. Why I can't meet one irl someone may ask? Well, I don't want my dad knowing about my mental health. One time my sister talked about her problems at home and my dad was pissed and thought she was making him seem like "the bad guy."

My hurdle was I never had any healthcare insurance. I missed the deadline to sign up for the company's offer years ago. I guess I would've winged it with a third part but idk I was new to this. Finally, I signed up for healthcare a few months back. But I haven't choosen my primary care doctor yet.

I might end up buying a webcam from Amazon that way I don't have to do this physical. I am too anxious to talk to someone but I guess I have no other choice. Man I wish I lived in Europe or Canada. You guys are lucky to have free health care.

Your dad is definetely "the bad guy", the fact he cares about his image more than your health proves it!

As for being anxious to talk, you may not necesarily need to. I dont like it either, i dont like the fact that i cant take my time to structure my thoughts properly, and craft what i want to say with more effort than im limited to in real time speech. I prefer writting. Is there such an option?

8 months

Enas

How to get bad skin?

Kitsune:
I did left a comment but I eventually deleted it.

Its better not to delete your comments as it would help me understand, and in that case i could help you better!

For now... Look, i have a very weird theory of things. I dont believe in peoples' (and mine) worth, etc. Its a bit hard to explain how on one hand i dont accept these ideas of, say "common wisdom" and on the other i dont suffer, like many people do.

What I most identify with is not having (... Well... Not having *enough*) friends. The limiting factor seems to be that of intelligence. To befriend someone closely, i need them to demonstrate their intelligence to me, usually through a conversation which absolutely requires that. I dont know if that helps?

You also seem to worry about a bunch of stuff that need no worry. I dont care about how rich someone is (i would worry if someone is too poor, but thats a different story), what i care about is the other person being able to exercise their critical though and so on. I dont assign some kind of morality to people based on their bank accounts or pockets! I think you once had a traumatic experience that made you uncomfortable with the idea of being presented as a rich person? (regardless if you are or not) Have you talked to a psychologist about that?

8 months

Enas

How to get bad skin?

Kitsune:
I hate myself. I am an evil person.

Enas:
Why do you hate yourself?

And what do you think an evil person is?

Kitsune:
Because I misunderstood the post and I think I was being selfish. Even though I was just depressed and I myself have an abusive dad. I am afraid Ditzy was making it seem like I was a wealthy person when everyday I have to work at a physical while everyone hates me and make not as much money. Now I am planning to run away to Seattle and live with my dad's relatives that way I can risk having a happy life. I even thought of doing self harm days ago when I got in trouble in the office for falling asleep at work. I didn't have the courage to tell them my troubled life at home. I wish I was a famous animator and fullfill my dreams. That's what preventing me from killing myself.

As for why I think I am an evil person. I have mentally hurt people in the past and I have got into arguments online. I am terminally ill because I don't have many friends and I am all alone. I rarely go out.

I dont think i understand what you're saying in the first part. O.o

Did you reply in this post? Aside from this reply and the other (to which i replied to you)

8 months

Enas

How to get bad skin?

Kitsune:
I hate myself. I am an evil person.

Why do you hate yourself?

And what do you think an evil person is?

8 months

Enas

How to get bad skin?

Ditzy:
In my case having a husband that controlled everything in your life from what time you got up in the morning to the time you went to bed is enough to make spite a very strong thing.
I was his "trophy wife".
I had to dress to the nines any time I went out with him and even if I went to the grocery.
If I failed to do exactly as he ordered he would slap me around and call me horrible names.
I doubt any of you ladies here would put up with that.
My spite was not really self harm to me but to his ego.
I knew it was temporary.

Wtf!?!? Im so sorry you had to pass even a day of this! Its traumatic!

8 months

Enas

What's your favorite rp?

I really like adult and child, specifically i wanna be a good boy for a mommy dome feeder. This dynamic means i can be carefree and irresponsible (eat because im greedy, to the point my belly would hurt, etc, - being too dumb to realize that if i eat too much i will suffer the consequences, or that if i cum too much i will become addicted to it) and my mommy dome is the figure that takes care of me. The hotest part in that is that she also gets to define what my good is! Like, she can define it as me being too fat to roll over in bed, and because im carefree and irresponsible i wouldn't even care to resist it! And she could lovingly get me so fat that i would become totally dependent and trapped with her! 🥴

8 months

Enas

Need advice regarding meeting a ffa

MottiF:
Sounds god! i'll try this, just to be prepare for what to expect from her, yeah.

Thanks, i'm so excited!

Its also importand to say it, in order to communicate your worry! It will be appreciated i think!

8 months

Enas

Need advice regarding meeting a ffa

MottiF:
After days of chatting with a female feeder, I was able to arrange a date with her, so I just will appreciate any advices regarding a first date with her.

What do avoid or what is acceptable in meeting her, i mean, do u bring up a long the way out kinks, or just waiting her to bring it up?

We talked a lot about me gaining weight and all, i was eating really well this week, with her encouragement, and we really talked about our kinks, and we pretty open with each other. So i just really appreciate what to do on a first date with her, she really open to feeding me in public, and talking about how she will fatten me up and all. We will meet on an all you can eat restaurant so I don’t know if that matter. Just would be glad to hear any advice from ppl here.

First of all, big CONGRATS!!

I think you should ask her exactly that, right of the bat. Is she okay with you opening up completely even to the most "uncomfortable" parts of your fantasies, right away? Or would she prefer a more gradual opening up, etc?

Does she want a super sexy date or a romantic one?

Btw if i were in your position, i would say something like... "I have this preference for our date but i wanna know your preference about it also!"

What do you think?

8 months

Enas

Have any life experiences affect how you experience feedism?

Yes! I once was an extreme feeder! But roughly 3 years back i changed to being a feedee! I started pleasuring myself with feedee fantasies and now i cant help it at all!

Talking with a woman who also pushed me into engaging with my feedee side, also helped!

8 months

Enas