Getting in and out of my car or my Jeep.
Of course there always seems to be somebody watching.

Enjoy the 3 sec stare.
I stare at guys bellies frequently if the are big ones.

Fatman 76 don't worry about what others say.
So many come and go and the bad ones always seem to vanish.
Stick around and make some friends.

Back to the original topic and I am surprised there haven't been more posts in this thread.
Can't believe it was a year ago I posted in this thread.
A year ago I was 400 lbs approx and I have put on 45 lbs since then. Wasn't trying to gain it just happened. I tend to eat a lot sometimes LOL.

I have kept in contact with some YT ers I knew years ago and they still have their channels but have a regular 9 to 5 job.
One went to realty school and sells real estate part time.
The big channels do quite well but they spend 100 hours a week making and editing content.
Basically have no life just the channel.
I hope you can make a living at it because 80% barely make enough to live on.

You tube should be something you do to supplement an income.
YT fame is fleeting and usually doesn't last over 10 years.
Maybe find a job to be your go to the bank income.
I know because I had a YT channel years ago and income was ok for a few years then dropped off making it not worth my time.
Getting ad income isn't as easy as it used to be and I couldn't imagine how it is now.

Feabie was too much like high school.
You had to be in one of the cliques to be accepted.
I was there when it went online and left after a month.
The level of immaturity of people there was so bad.

I understand how it feels to be second best thats why I have an ex husband.

I'm supportive and think everybody deserves to be happy and content.

I think 90% of us feel frustration when it comes to dating at some time.
I had been on dating sites but usually when guys learned I was fat and didn't mind being fat they lost interest and thats OK .
I'm old school when it comes to dating so pretty much blah for most people with a kink.
Not being gay myself I know lots of gay men but those guys are really fussy about who they date.
Far more than a woman honestly.
I do hope you find someone because you deserve to be happy

It can't be that hard to find people to date in your area.
You just have to put yourself out there and meet people.
Be open about what you are into.
That may scare some off but you just might find someone real not a profile on some kink website.
Your match isn't going to come to you so you will have to find them.