WideJuan76:
I know for me that I have a limit. I had a pre fat man's dream of having an older woman who was well versed in feeding males she liked and money wasn't a worry and I had missing time because I went full hedonistic and the cliff to fatness is as such that even if you don't succumb to the pull of complete mindless gluttony you will never be below three hundred without extreme effort and most will just gorge just enough to stay fat because losing the weight will be too much
NYCBellyBlimp:
You're still willing to control the switch as opposed to the alternative, which is honorable. Like Icarus, you can only fly so close to the sun for so long before getting burnt/unable to make your way back or close.[/quote]
I am willing to control the switch because I literally saw what my future was going to be because I had not calculated what being superobese was going to be like until I met my ex's friends who had spouses who were beyond me and those men couldn't do much of anything other than gorge and that terrified me because they literally gave into their fatness so all they cared about was food and their next meal..
4 years
NYCBellyBlimp:
I've had growth spurts...some overnight after cutting loose nights or a week before. Literally have to rock out of bed with more effort.
Though the mid-day growth spurts are wild as you can literally feel your body widening, filling out, moving different, more energy to do the simplest things from a day ago.
I think that I have had those but I typically had episodes in which I think my brain went to its default settings and I went damn near weeks not being aware of how much exes were cooking and I would get stoned so much back then that I forgot that I ate a whole pan of lasagna so I have had twilight zone fat wake up realizations.
4 years
WideJuan76:
Folks don't realize that we all see fatness differently and some may revel in it while others become terrified of being embarrassed due to their addiction to food. I have seen the full spectrum of fatness and I have been on damn near all sides and most aren't ready for a time when there fatness becomes a cell.
NYCBellyBlimp:
That's true, not monolithic at all. Whether escapism for different reasons, side effects from different medications for different reasons, or sincere hedonism enjoyment of food.[/quote]
I know for me that I have a limit. I had a pre fat man's dream of having an older woman who was well versed in feeding males she liked and money wasn't a worry and I had missing time because I went full hedonistic and the cliff to fatness is as such that even if you don't succumb to the pull of complete mindless gluttony you will never be below three hundred without extreme effort and most will just gorge just enough to stay fat because losing the weight will be too much
4 years
NYCBellyBlimp:
Reminds me of the agoraphobia D. Cates experienced as Gilbert Grape's mom, seeing the reaction from the town people when she went to the see the County Sheriff.
Sparing her indignity they opted to set the house on fire when she passed on.
That is a good 411 of some being too fearful of others thoughts and choosing comfort of home. As far as vitals checked regularly, providing heat/air conditioning via generators is convenient as long as the facility doesn't cut corners in other ways.
Folks don't realize that we all see fatness differently and some may revel in it while others become terrified of being embarrassed due to their addiction to food. I have seen the full spectrum of fatness and I have been on damn near all sides and most aren't ready for a time when there fatness becomes a cell.
4 years
Fatffa:
This past Saturday, for the first time ever, I broke a chair. It was embarrassing but also kind of a thrill. I was at a friend’s house so I felt a little bit bad because it was her chair. She laughed at me a little bit. An hour later I stuffed myself with fast food at her place. I’m sure she feared I was going for a second chair the way I was absolutely gorging myself. If I’m honest, I might have been. It didn’t happen though. Anyone else reach a new “non scale victory?”
I remember the first chair that I broke but you felt the exhilarating sensation of realizing how fat you have become and how you are excited, embarrassed and turned on by how fat you have become. But my non scale victory was when I became a meme and it went viral. I had just left my girlfriend's house from the cookout they had and I ate too much and some of my friends took a picture of me and posted it and I was embarrassed by it but I saw that folks liked it as well as laughed at it and it inspired me and my gf was a feeder/feedee so she couldn't get enough of it. We oinkers are going to oink. 🐖🐖🐖🐖
4 years
Fatffa:
Oh definitely the same for me too. Sometimes I’m still surprised by how big I’ve gotten and how it’s changed so many things for me. Booths are pretty much out of the question now. I’m even fatter now then when I almost got stuck. Probably by a good 15 lbs.
I know that feeling all too well. It is like we woke up and we were obese but eventually we realize that we ate ourselves to this level so it goes from a feeling of amazement to a feeling of accomplishment so we keep going.
4 years
Fatffa:
The table was and odd height for me because I had to keep my boobs over the table and my belly under the table to be able to fit. It wasn’t very comfortable and got less so as my belly started to press against the underside.
What is crazy though, I feel your pain because I am fat enough that I have to do the same thing and I wouldn't be able to say that over a hundred pounds ago. 🐽🐽🐽🐽
4 years
WideJuan76:
I wholeheartedly would like the same but every situation that I have encountered in which the person got so obese that they had to knock out a wall to get them out most never wanted to go into a facility because now they are afraid to go outside because they were terrified about how folks would make fun of them. I had an ex whose aunt was like that and she had not left her place in twenty five years but she kept herself clean and she had a cleaning service help her but she was well over six hundred and was too scared to ever go outside.
NYCBellyBlimp:
True and understandable. Knowing if I had to be dragged on bedsheets to the elevator and ambulance it would be just that 1 time, spending the rest of my days at that facility indoors.[/quote]
But if we keep going, that will be our future dude. That is why I am glad that I have folks around me to help and since we are all obese; we help each other out so they understand what fat embarrassment feels like
4 years
chubbydiva:
Two years ago, I went to a restaurant with my mother and sister; where we were seated at a booth. The booth was small that I barely squeezed into the booth. I nearly gotten stuck in a booth since I am heavier than my mother and sister.
I hate the booths that have the table that doesn't because my gut is always grating against the table so I can empathize with this
4 years
I came from a family who looked down on fatness so when I become fat I noticed that there were a slew of new sensations that no one talks about nor did I know existed. Like how my back fat grabs my compression shirts, how my moobs move as I walk, how I can literally feel each butt cheek of mine damn near move independent of each other and how I can feel my calf fat move as I walk and it becomes sensory overload because sometimes I can feel this all going on at the same time then the dopamine hits and I am compelled to go eat something so I can keep feeling these sensations in the future. Gotta love flabby moving fat. 🐽🐽🐽🐽
4 years
