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I have also felt like that before. I don't think I can say I've ever been fat, my heaviest has been about 172 lbs, after a toxic relationship that isolated me from everyone. It sure was a bloody high price to pay, but it's the only thing that's been effective in fattening me. My mum started giving me constant comments implying that it was not something that should happen to *me*, like being fat is meant for the others, not for me. It's hard to explain, but in a nutshell I think she meant that I was superior to those who got fat and that I should not let that happen to me. I thing this is utter bullshit, there's no such thing as superior people, nevertheless I did lose the weight after that, even though I had never experienced as much pleasure as when I felt my (technically) overweight body.

I have now decided that I don't want to die thinking how I never dared to be the person that I wanted to be because of these prejudices that aren't even mine. I am actively trying to become obese. Every now and then I think I should stop, stay as I am with the weight I've already gained, and I reckon that one day that'll be wise, but not until I can at least technically claim to be or have been obese. Truth is, it's bloody hard for me to gain, and I also envy those who have gotten fat without even trying. But, you know, I guess we just have to accept our bodies and keep trying hard.

Don't lose your determination, don't let your doubts deceive you. At the end of the day, you have to live your life the way you want or you'll end up regretting it even more. There's nothing inherently wrong with being fat. By all means, keep track of your health and do lose weight if a health specialist tells you it's threatening your life or wellbeing, but don't listen to anyone that tries to imply that you're turning yourself into a lesser kind of person for getting fat, no matter how much you love this person or if it's a figure of authority to you.

I believe it has something to do with getting more subcutaneous fat and less visceral fat. Check out user becomingoverweight 's posts, he's a true biohacker.

Most of us seem to have had similar experiences with cartoons. I wonder if the people in charge of making them were actually Fat Admirers fullfiling their dreams for the generations to come 🤔🧐

That makes sense, I have been having a lot of heartburn haha

But I didn't drink it all at once, I had half a pint after every meal (except my extra meal between lunch and dinner). I mean, I have undeniably gotten fatter, but not really much, at least not as much as I would expect with a surplus of 4200 calories every day 🤷

How did it go now that 4 months have gone by?

I've just started about a month ago with the double cream but so far I've seen very little gain.

I've been drinking 900 ml a day, usually pausing for the weekends. Is that too much? It's 4200 calories a day just on cream.

You can try to curb it, but eventually you'll realise it's a matter of doing it or getting old and wandering if you should have let yourself do it. The unavoidable result of not letting yourself be someone you want to be is regret and frustration. You can always lose the weight if being fat doesn't end up being what you wanted, and if health is what worries you, remember it's always better to be fat now than when you're older. 10 years ago I had the perfect chance to become fat and I didn't do it. Now I'm making myself obese and nothing's stopping me. Maybe I'll lose it later in life if needed, but I really hope to stay obese for the rest of my days.

That must be why it tasted rank 🤔

I got the neck pains too in the beginning.

I’m only starting to get fat, but I’m getting a hard, round pot belly. I don’t like it, I want a soft collection of flabby rolls. Should I lose it and regain then? 🤔