Been thinking of getting a CAD certificate in the future but I will do CAD as a hobby for now. I am curious what is the work environment like? Is there a lot of micromanaging? Is your job stressful at times?

I have watched videos on YouTube where people would do the pretend route by using a homemade suit. I am guessing they put a trash bag underneath a swimsuit and connect the bag to a hose.

I remember stumbling upon an FFA ASMR on Tumblr a few years ago. I can't seem to find it at this moment.

Mine isn't anything deep. I was eating a Klondike bar at the time and that was my only source of inspiration. Looking back, I probably should've put more effort into my username.

The second guy I've dated years ago who cheated on me was a gainer man from Texas on Dimensions. Unlike me, he has been in many relationships and was previously dating a feeder woman from his state. Which I will touch upon eventually.

Anyways, we both had some meaningful conversations together that isn't even just about our fetishes. He was the few people in my lifetime where I was taken seriously despite my introverted nature and mental disabilities and our chats were genuine. Around winter time was when our relationship slowly started to fade away. He was even reaching his goal of gaining 400 lb.

I will note I was around 21 or 22 while he was near his 40's which looking back was a bit problematic. Because of my age and naiveness, he took advantage of me. I can remember how he would often bring up his previous girlfriend and I can even remember the time he compared both of our breast sizes. Which was when I finally stood up for myself but I did regret not dumping him on the spot.

As a year passed he started to talk less often. I was worried at the time but I tried to respect his boundaries. He has talked to me about wanting to lose weight due to health problems and wanting to see his sons more often from his previous marriage. Which I was fine with.

As for his ex. I have seen her venting on the forums multiple times which I assure she missed the guy I was with. I am for certain even he missed her too and I was just a temporary solution to his loneliness.

Now, my ex boyfriend has told me stories about their relationship together. I think the cause of their downfall was she was assertive and wanted to continue feeding while he was injured and couldn't work. I don't know if that story was the final blow of their relationship, but it has given me an idea what their relationship dynamics were like.

Anyways, back to our decline of our relationship. The ex-girlfriend did leave a couple of hearts on his thread and that was when I finally knew he was a player. I probably should've talked to him but I instead ended up blocking him and used the site less often.

A friend of mine told me they made up which I wasn't surprised. The local feeder girl did write a positive blog about being back together. Unsurprisingly, her boyfriend did block me. However, as a year has passed, he eventually unblocked me and even liked one of my comments. That led me to assume their relationship collapsed again or maybe he was playing games with me. Who knows.

I will admit I haven't moved on from him at the time despite masking up my emotions; didn't fully heal. Because of my loneliness I added him back. I didn't bother messaging him until New Years 2023. Which I regret doing since he hasn't responded back in a while. That was when I deleted my Dims account and realized he wasn't worth it.

To this day I no longer have feelings for this man. But I can understand why I used to love him. We were both lost souls who were sensitive deep down. I am glad though that we didn't date too long considering he was struggling with rent and had insecurity issues. Not to mention he had some drug addictions. I wouldn't be surprised if those cons was why his wife left him years ago.

You are not wrong that route is more affordable! However, I do miss getting out of the house and traveling to places. The last time me and my family went somewhere that wasn't the lake was the Oregon coast but that was 5 years. :'(

Too bad I am 2 hours away from Seattle. That omelette looks scrumptious judging from the photos. I can picture my BHM friend unbuttoning his pants while being unable to finish his plate. Being the foodie I am I would be eager to finish off the plate for him.

I will say my real life non-fetish relationship lasted longer (5 years) than my online fetish-based relationships. Me and my first ex are still on good terms to this day. We just had a nice short conversation at Fred Meyer days ago.

I am probably generalizing but from what I've seen a lot of people on here aren't here for a deeper a connection. More like they are focused on the kink lifestyle if that makes sense. That was probably my issue when dating a few gainer guys. They were more fixated on talking about their WG which I will admit has gotten old.

I'm also a single Pringle and can resonate with your post. However, I've started to realize that I wasn't loving myself and had a fear of abandonment. American traditional norms have brainwashed us that we need a partner to be happy which isn't always true.

I grew up in a dysfunctional family and I fear of being married/having a long-term relationship after seeing the downfall of my parents' marriage. I often have traumatic flashbacks of my mom having a severe mental breakdown which I won't go into further details.

Welp, I am getting off track. Anyhow, I watched this video on YT in regards to loneliness/dating hurtful people and this lady shared some great advice that I think might help you out. I wish you well!

I got written up weeks ago due to struggling to stay awake at my job. I've admitted to the HR lady my depression were a cause to my lack of sleep but I didn't tell her I am actually terrified of my n-boss and I might have PTSD. I think I am on fight and flight mode. I just want to escape this nightmare and be at peace.

My aunt gifted me a oversized hoodie which was like XXL size. I tend to prefer wearing L or XL sized clothing. Not a big deal though since I like to wear it as a layer or around the house.